[Mainland Chinese Drama 2019] I Will Never Let You Go / Legend of Huo Buo 小女花不弃

[taeunfighting]

@themarchioness I just asked my mom about episode 49...

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She watched and thinks you are right about BQ's grandfather still being alive. I'm crossing my fingers that it's true!

 

[thunderman1]

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Because of one woman, and due to some prophecy, so many people had to die.

Gameover.. spoilers for those who want to see what happens to DFS.. 

[vtxy]

4 hours ago, themarchioness said:

I'm so confused.  For those who've watched 48 & 49....
 

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Is BQ's grandfather dead?  Or is this going to be another fake-out?  After Episode 48, I would've said yes, he's dead.  But in episode 49, when we got to see the flashback conversation that CY had with the emperor (and thus learn that he didn't really escape from the palace and is actually working with the emperor), the emperor asks how he can trust that CY won't just leave the palace and go do his thing, and CY responds that the emperor still has BQ's grandfather.  That would imply the emperor can't kill the grandfather since he needs his hidden card to make sure CY stays in line.  Also, if we look back to the scene where the grandfather is killed, the drama actually never shows us his dead body.  Instead, we see BJF looking away from the beheading because he's an utter wimp.  Is it possible the person doing the beheading was only going through the motions?  It would be so great if, at the very least, BQ's grandfather survived.  Or did I completely misunderstand these scenes?  I feel like I need to rewatch today's episodes all over again, especially since I was a mess of thoughts after Episode 48.  I'm glad I waited to say anything though (and oh boy did I have a lot of thoughts after that episode!) because then we learned so much more in Episode 49.

 

Also, Mr. Traitor Traitor Pants... he is such a traitor that he just can't help himself, can he?  Is there anyone else left to betray???  LOL.

 

 

 

1 hour ago, taeunfighting said:

@themarchioness I just asked my mom about episode 49...

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She watched and thinks you are right about BQ's grandfather still being alive. I'm crossing my fingers that it's true!

 

I've watched both episodes and I agree that 

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It sounds like BQ's grandfather isn't dead! When watching ep 48 I was thinking that it seemed out of character for CY to escape without trying to rescue her grandfather (since the whole point of CY going into the palace was to rescue him) and was a little disappointed in his actions.

 

But yes the flashbacks in ep 49 shows that everything was planned and BQ grandfather is still alive (assuming the emperor doesn't betray CY).

 

On another note, does it bother anyone that

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In all of CY's schemes, he is always afraid that BQ's reaction will affect things so she's always kept in the dark and gets worried/devastated for nothing? 

1) Him being arrested for treason

2) Him dying in the fire (he even added a scar on the dead body's hand to make BQ believe he was really dead)

3) BQ's grandfather death

There is some logic behind it, but it's repeated so many times that I feel so bad for BQ? 

Like c'mon her emotions aren't supposed to be used as props for staging your act.

 

[themarchioness]

Since I have no recaps for Episodes 48 & 49 today, here are some rambling thoughts instead.

 

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I adore Yun Lang.  He's so pure, so simple, so kind-hearted, and so loyal.  But it is these exact positive traits that are also his negative traits.  Because he tends to only see what's in front of him and doesn't have the wherewithal to see the bigger picture, we have him doing things like trying to free BQ from DFS's tent.  It's interesting that as BQ runs away with him, even she doesn't think this is a good idea and tries to return to the tent.  But Yun Lang, who's loyal to a fault, insists on staying the course.  And, of course, it's because of that that when DFS receives word that the Emperor has BQ and is about to kill her, he can't be certain that this isn't a set-up since BQ is not where she's supposed to be.

 

I find it frustrating that Xiao Xia died over what I find to have been a completely avoidable situation, if only people had communicated with each other even if they couldn't trust each other.  When DFS received the news about BQ being captured, he sent his men to release Xiao Xia so she could help him.  But when they arrive and find her ready to fight (were they expecting a different type of greeting?), their method of diffusing the situation was to tell her that BQ had been captured and was about to be killed.  Of course she went running off and, as a result, there was no time to tell her that BQ may have been captured and may be about to be killed, but there's also the possibility that she hasn't been captured and is very much alive!  Why couldn't they have told her the entirety of the situation before allowing her to go?  Argh.  Because they didn't, when Xiao Xia arrived on scene and saw the person she believed to be BQ, she immediately leapt up towards the pole to free her and got shot down by arrows instead.  So sad, so senseless, and so useless.  Xiao Xia never harmed anyone (who didn't deserve it, at least) and this was her ending.  NGL, I find it hard to stop myself from playing the "if only" game when it comes to her death . . . if only Yun Lang hadn't tried to set BQ free . . . if only DFS had, from the very beginning, comported himself in such a way to inspire trust versus distrust  . . . if only.

 

Between Episodes 48 and 49, CY had me in a mix of emotions today.  Normally, I watch the episodes back to back, and I think if I'd done that, I wouldn't have gotten so twisted up today.  But today was a day where I watched 48 over lunch and then had the rest of my work day to think about it until I could watch 49.   

 

In Episode 48, I felt . . . disappointed (if I were to be quite honest) in CY, and that in turn made me feel lost and confused about the drama as a whole.  I suddenly couldn't see the direction in which were headed, and it left me restless and uncomfortable.  There were two main reasons for this.  First, I felt confused by CY's leaving behind BQ's grandfather.  It was so out of character and I just didn't understand it.  I could only rationalize it by wondering if he'd done that because he'd known it would be a pointless endeavor to try rescuing the grandfather it by himself and so was hoping to steal away first in order to return with reinforcements.  Second, after CY escaped from the palace and encountered DFS in the woods, I was left with this overwhelming feeling of, "Wow, you really have no plan."  As it was pointed out to CY, he could no longer side with the emperor (since he'd run away and would surely be marked for death if he tried to return) and that left him with only DFS.  When presented with those options, all I could think about was how, in a different drama, he'd be the one then stepping forward to pursue the throne.  I know CY is a pacifist and the throne has never been his ambition, but that's true of other dramas I've watched where despite that, the male heroes always end up being the emperor anyway.  It happens because despite their utter lack of desire for the throne, the other male heroes realize at some point that it's either fight and win or be dead -- meaning, unless they take the crown for themselves, they know they'll always be perceived as a threat by others and so no matter who ends up being the emperor, someone will still have it out for them even if they truly have no desire to battle for that position.  Therefore, in order to protect the woman they love, the heroes in those dramas, will end up also fighting for the throne.  But that wasn't happening in this drama . . . and so I wondered, "What is CY's plan?"  What is his purpose?  How does he intend on keeping BQ from being sacrificed as a priestess?"  These questions then led me to start wondering also about who would be the emperor at the end of the drama.  From spoilers/previews, we know DFS will die, so if CY hitching his wagon to DFS meant that he'd have a dead leader in the end, who next?  Would the current emperor remain on his throne, and if so, what would that mean for BQ and CY?  CY may be family and BQ and her treasures may no longer be necessary, but that wouldn't change the fact that they'd already gone against him.  Through these questions running through my mind, you can see how I really started wondering where the drama was headed with everything.

 

Fortunately, a lot of my earlier misgivings were overturned after watching Episode 49 -- I know, I know, I really should've had more faith in CY.  As it turned out, he did have a plan and we got to see how before "escaping" from the palace, he'd met with the emperor and shared those plans.  He has basically set everything to make it look like he escaped and is on the outs with the emperor in order to infiltrate DFS's camp.  From there, he is able to send information back to the emperor, and this is particularly important given that BJF has turned traitor once again and is now working with DFS.  The only downside, of course, is that BQ doesn't know it's all an act and he is having to keep up his act until the very end.  So it's very sad to see her heartbroken and watching CY worry over her while feeling apologetic for the torture he knows he is putting her through.

 

QW seems to have finally thought things through and given up on CY - yay!  Instead, she is aligning herself with the emperor and seems to now want to help him succeed.  It's not entirely altruistic, of course.  She knows there's potential for her to derive a lot of power through him.  To be honest, I'm less concerned about who she stands next to.  I just don't her causing more trouble!  At the end of episode 49 she finally reunites with her sister and although both had separate missions to kill each other, they seem to have reached peace with Qing Yan's revelation of their true parentage.  I say "seem" because frankly, they've given me no reason to trust them.  I guess we'll have to just wait and see how their story plays out.

 

As I indicated in my other post, I really hope BQ's grandfather is not deceased -- especially since his being alive would be such comfort after Xiao Xia's death.

 

With only two episodes remaining, I just hope everything gets tied up in a sensible way. 

 

 

[themarchioness]

58 minutes ago, vtxy said:

 

I've watched both episodes and I agree that 

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It sounds like BQ's grandfather isn't dead! When watching ep 48 I was thinking that it seemed out of character for CY to escape without trying to rescue her grandfather (since the whole point of CY going into the palace was to rescue him) and was a little disappointed in his actions.

 

But yes the flashbacks in ep 49 shows that everything was planned and BQ grandfather is still alive (assuming the emperor doesn't betray CY).

 

On another note, does it bother anyone that

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In all of CY's schemes, he is always afraid that BQ's reaction will affect things so she's always kept in the dark and gets worried/devastated for nothing? 

1) Him being arrested for treason

2) Him dying in the fire (he even added a scar on the dead body's hand to make BQ believe he was really dead)

3) BQ's grandfather death

There is some logic behind it, but it's repeated so many times that I feel so bad for BQ? 

Like c'mon her emotions aren't supposed to be used as props for staging your act.

 

 

You make me feel better in that I wasn't the only one feeling disappointed by him in episode 48.   
 

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If the grandfather is still alive (and I hope he is), I don't think the emperor can afford to betray CY by killing the grandfather anyway.  The whole point of the grandfather being alive is that, so long as he lives, CY will do the emperor's bidding and return to his side.  If the grandfather is killed, that gives CY no incentive and he can just go and do his own thing -- which is what the emperor was afraid of and why CY pointed out he had BQ's grandfather in his hands.  So yay, I'm glad we all seem to be in agreement that the grandfather has hope!

 

 

As for your other question . . .

 

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It bothers me a little bit, especially because I also feel bad for BQ.  But like you said, there is some logic behind his decision.  He needs her reactions to be real so that people won't be able to learn anything from her.  (This is especially true of someone like DFS who knows her well, and knows how good she is at telling tales.)  Also, I think he sometimes doesn't want her knowing things to avoid her being able to be used as a tool by others -- which is why, as an example, he waited so long to tell her the true prophecy of the Biluotian priestess.  It was only when her life became in peril that, for her own protection, he told her that last bit. 

 

In this particular instance, I'm also not sure how CY would be able to meet with BQ to give her the head's up.  She's pretty closely watched and I can't imagine he would want to do anything that would risk him exposing his plans.  Although, having said that, I did feel like he came close to saying something when he went to entreat her to eat her meals, but he saved himself by saying words of encouragement from her grandfather instead.  (Also, if her grandfather is indeed alive, I wonder if CY was also trying to give her hope about that by invoking her grandfather at that moment?) 

 

I guess it's like the saying goes though: no pain, no gain.   

 

 

[taeunfighting]

@themarchioness Thank you for random thoughts!

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My Chinese isn't great so with so much happening in episode 48 and 49, I couldn't quite follow everything which is why I had to ask my mom to help me understand the flashbacks of CY's conversation with the emperor. She said it's vague, but she agrees with you that their conversation does imply that somehow BQ's grandfather is still alive and that CY is very apologetic to BQ that he has to put her through this anguish, but he has no choice as he has come this far already in his plans and he cannot let his efforts go to waste. It does seem like CY has his reasons for all his actions...as if he think he will be able to kill many birds with this one stone (scheme). Like you, I hope they all make sense in the end especially with just two episodes left.

 

Regarding DFS, I have seen the previews. It looks like he will die, but do you think he will really die? I have come to like him so I guess I am not wanting to see that. If the current emperor does sustain the throne, then I think it is likely that DFS will have to die. I am torn on this one.

 

Off topic, but in the opening theme...there is a scene of CY grabbing/hugging BQ...around 1:14. CY is wearing all white. I believe it is the same outfit in the upcoming wedding/well scene. BQ is wearing a pink outfit. I believe it is the same one in episode 48/49 while she is at the camp. Did that happen yet? I wonder if they will clear the misunderstanding before the wedding/well scene.

 

[biancardi]

6 hours ago, thunderman1 said:

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Because of one woman, and due to some prophecy, so many people had to die.

Gameover.. spoilers for those who want to see what happens to DFS.. 

well that kinda got spoiled with the word gameover

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10 hours ago, themarchioness said:

I'm so confused.  For those who've watched 48 & 49....

 

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Is BQ's grandfather dead?  Or is this going to be another fake-out?  After Episode 48, I would've said yes, he's dead.  But in episode 49, when we got to see the flashback conversation that CY had with the emperor (and thus learn that he didn't really escape from the palace and is actually working with the emperor), the emperor asks how he can trust that CY won't just leave the palace and go do his thing, and CY responds that the emperor still has BQ's grandfather.  That would imply the emperor can't kill the grandfather since he needs his hidden card to make sure CY stays in line.  Also, if we look back to the scene where the grandfather is killed, the drama actually never shows us his dead body.  Instead, we see BJF looking away from the beheading because he's an utter wimp.  Is it possible the person doing the beheading was only going through the motions?  It would be so great if, at the very least, BQ's grandfather survived.  Or did I completely misunderstand these scenes?  I feel like I need to rewatch today's episodes all over again, especially since I was a mess of thoughts after Episode 48.  I'm glad I waited to say anything though (and oh boy did I have a lot of thoughts after that episode!) because then we learned so much more in Episode 49.

 

Also, Mr. Traitor Traitor Pants... he is such a traitor that he just can't help himself, can he?  Is there anyone else left to betray???  LOL.

 

 

Also, I'm sorry, I don't think there will be any recaps tonight... first, today's episodes had me on an emotional rollercoaster ride (although I at least ended on a more hopeful note) and I feel like I need to catch my breath from the whiplash.  Second, to be quite honest, as the drama heads more into the real conflict of the show, recapping has turned into a lot of work for me.  If it was just casual conversations they were all having, I'd understand that easily enough to whip out a quick recap.  But starting from last week, especially, I've had a lot to do more dictionary searching to understand precisely what's going on and it takes me hours.  So, I just need a break.  I may roll them out over the weekend, but in any event, we're to the finish line.  I hope you all understand.

Thk you @themarchioness, the recaps hv been great. Since i join gp late..wondering if u hv the links to all previous recaps ! 

[hlntxn]

11 hours ago, smoua said:

I cannot wait for her to die.

Lmao me too!

[crackaddict]

On 2/28/2019 at 1:15 AM, themarchioness said:

Sorry, my friends!  I got off work late today and so only had time to do one recap.  But one's better than none, right?   

 

Episode 46 - Recap!

 

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The episode picks up with MRF asking BQ to give him a chance so that he can atone for his mother’s sins.  He wants to help her and points out all the reason why allowing him to accompany her back to the capitol would be a good thing.  When he finally points out that he has a carriage, which will allow her to travel undetected and return to the capitol that much faster, BQ finally but hesitantly agrees. 

 

 

 

DFS meets with all the various generals/leaders who are now serving under him. Rather than trying to translate the entire contents of his speech, I’ll just characterize it as: he makes a grand speech about the mission they’re about to undertake and the journey they’re about to share.  When he finishes, they toast with a bowl of wine.  DFS throws his bowl to the ground and his men follow suit.  He then grabs for his sword and yells at the top of his lungs for everything to begin.

 

 

 

MFR and BQ (who is now dressed as one of his family’s maids) are riding in the carriage together when she asks him for a favor.  She says that when she reaches the capitol she wants to find a person and explains that ever since she moved to Zhu Manor, this person has been her bodyguard and with her around, she’ll feel more secure.  It’s Xiao Xia and MRF expresses his understanding as well as his willingness to assist by instructing his right hand man to stop briefly at the next stop (presumably to send out a message for Xiao Xia).  When he finishes giving the order, BQ asks if he isn’t upset but MRF asks, “Why would I be upset?”  She finally has people she can consider her own and this makes him happy.  He also understands that returning to Mo Manor will be uncomfortable for her and this way, she’ll have someone she feels comfortable with protecting her.

 

 

 

After they finish that conversation, they sit in silence until MRF smiles.  BQ asks him what he’s laughing about and he says he’s not.  He’s just thinking about the first time she entered the capitol, and says that he never imagined in just these few years, she would go through so much.  He wonders if he hadn’t insisted on bringing her back to the capitol back then whether she’d be living a happier life as a beggar.  BQ tells him that’s an impossibility because even if it hadn’t been him, CY would’ve wanted to take her to the capitol.  Additionally, the person behind Yao Ling Zhuang Zhu would also have sent someone to send her back to the capitol.  Because of her fate, it all would’ve turned out the same way. 

 

 

 

Around this time, their carriage becomes surrounded by weary travelers on foot begging them for foot.  They don’t have any water to share, but after probing the travelers for information, they learn that Cheng Wang’s descendant is trying to help the Cheng Wang to return to the throne and that the city ahead of them has already been taken over (which is why the people are leaving).  BQ recognizes the person they’re talking about to be DFS.  She says this means they can no longer pass through the next city and asks MRF to find a roundabout way to return to the capitol.  When MRF asks how she knows DFS, she explains that he’s another person who’s after her because her family owes his money a large sum of money.  This also means the emperor has linked the two families together and wants to capture both of them.  MRF responds by saying he never imagined that, in these past few years, she’s lived a far more complicated life than he ever imagined. 

 

 

 

[Side note to say: Every time MRF kept talking about the timeline in “years” it made me pause.  Since we’re watching the drama as if each day occurs after the next, it feels like maybe only a year or two at most have passed since the beginning of the story.  But his comments serve as a reminder that the drama’s timeframe must be longer than that – and that makes sense.  After all, with all the traveling that they do in this drama, it serves us well to remember that these were long journeys that they were making.  Not something completed in a week or two, but months.  I don’t know, maybe I’m the only one who found that interesting, but since I did, I thought I’d comment on it.  J]

 

 

 

Back in the palace, the Emperor is lecturing his officials.  He has received word of all the inroads the rebellion is making by forming alliances with people he previously regarded as on his side, and to say the emperor is upset would be an understatement.  The officials keep apologizing for their laxity, which the emperor blames for how the rebellion has been able to grow right under their noses, and the emperor finally explodes that what he needs are horses and armed forces not their apologies and useless ideas.  That’s when he asks after the horses that Fei Yun Bao still hasn’t delivered and asks them how come it looks like the Fei Yun Bao family is even working with DFS now.  He ends his speech by observing that Mo Manor and Fei Yun Bao are related through marriage, and so he gives the order for Mo Manor to be searched and seized with everything confiscated.   

 

 

 

BQ and MRF finally arrive home to Mo Manor.  She approaches it hesitantly, but MRF smiles at her to follow him in.  As they walk towards the quarters where she once stayed, she comments that nothing has changed and it looks the same as when she left.  Around this time, we see the emperor’s men running around Mo Manor.  They hear the noise and MRF instructs his right hand man to take BQ towards the family bunker while he goes to see what’s going on.  What’s going on is his people are being killed while his mother’s being dragged and captured.  Mo Bo (his mother’s faithful servant) dies trying to protect her and MRF finally swoops in to save her.  He doesn’t understand what’s going on nor does he understand why his family’s being accused of treason, but he fights off the attackers and helps his injured mother run away where they join BQ and his right hand man in the family bunker.

 

 

 

When they arrive to the bunker, Mo Mommy is shocked to see BQ.  She tells MRF that she sees a ghost and he corrects her, telling her that BQ is alive.  He then asks her what’s going on and that’s when she explains that her brother was forced into aligning himself with DFS and they, in turn, were linked to Fei Yun Bao through her.  She tells MRF that she tried to send word to him, but he couldn’t be found, and so she stayed to wait for him.  This makes MRF feel guilty, of course, and when he apologize she realizes that the reason MRF couldn’t be found was because he’d gone looking for BQ.  This causes his mother to turn her anger towards BQ (not that I think her anger ever left BQ) and she accuses BQ for being responsible for her son’s demise in the same way that her mother had caused her husband’s demise.  Of course BQ is defensive about this, as her mother was the innocent party, and if we really think about it, Mommy Mo was a catalyst for a lot of what’s going on now, so really.  Who’s to blame here? 

 

 

 

As they argue over who is to blame, MRF tries to treat his mother’s injuries.  She wants him to leave her behind though, as she knows trying to escape with her will only make things harder for him.  She tells him that he should finally live his life for himself rather for others, and MRF just yells that he won’t leave her behind.  After MRF finishes binding his mother’s injury, they all get up to leave.  That’s when his mother grabs and dagger intending to kill herself and BQ stops her.  His mother asks her why she won’t let her die when she’s the person who hates her the most and wants to see her die.  BQ agrees that she does hate her, but MRF has always treated her well and she doesn’t want to see him sad.  His mother responds that she never imagined that at a time like this when she wants to die, she’s actually being saved by Xue Fei’s daughter.  She then tells BQ to dream on if she ever thinks she’ll be grateful because she’s not and she’ll never forgive them either.  (Such a lovely person, no?  Don’t worry.  She’s about to get hers.) 

 

 

 

As they fight in the bunker, the emperor’s men arrive after having found them.  They start shooting their arrows through the locked gate and MRF’s mother steps in front to save her son.  She dies while MFR cries and in the end, BQ has to drag him away lest he end up dying with her.  Unfortunately, MRF’s mother is not the only casualty of this battle.  His right hand man had also lifted a table to serve as a shield as they ran for the bunker’s exit and, in doing so, he became exposed at one point and so an arrow found him too.  Figuring he was already a goner, the right hand man yells for MRF and BQ to leave while he tried to waylay the emperor’s men in order to give them time to escape.  I can’t say I was terribly saddened by Mommy Mo’s death, but the MRF’s right hand man was always a decent guy.  L 

 

 

 

After escaping Mo Manor, BQ and MRF find themselves in some random village.  The emperor’s men are walking around looking for them with a drawing of MRF.  Realizing that they need to find a way to hide themselves, BQ suggests they swap their clothes for ones she found drying on a fence.  She explains that with her dressed up as a man and him dressed up as a woman, this will increase their chances of going undetected.  MRF responds, however, that he doesn’t feel comfortable dressing up like a woman and refuses.  That’s when BQ says to him that, actually, she knows he’s a “she” and that she’s known it ever since the beginning.  She reminds him of the time he was injured and only his mother was allowed to see him.  She also reminds him of how he helped her match her clothes to make-up color.  She asks him not to pretend with her anymore, empathizing with all the difficulties he must have faced in pretending to be something he wasn’t, and promises that she’s never said a word to anyone.  She also asks him to stop hesitating because they don’t have a lot of time left. 

 

 

 

After MRF changes into women’s clothing, BQ compliments him on his looks.  He then explains how the deception began.  His father had always wanted a son, so after he was born, his mother treated him like a little boy and he got used to being a little boy.  After his father died young and his mother suffered at the hands of others because of that, the fact that everyone thought he was a boy actually helped him secure the family.  And so, the lie continued until nobody but his mother ever knew that he was actually a girl.  After he finishes his tale, BQ takes his hand and says, “Who says girls can’t compare to boys?”  She finds it impressive that MRF was able to take control of his family’s business from such an early age and despite being a woman, and points out that there are plenty of men who wouldn’t have been able to do the same.  At that, MRF thanks BQ.  He says that even though she knew it was his mother who’d harmed her, she never tried to harm them, and he’s thankful for that.

 

 

 

The guards arrive and call everyone from the village to the front and center for inspection.  One of them lingers in front of MRF with the picture in his hand.  It’s clear the guard sees a similarity, but another guard comes back and asks him why he’s staring at another person’s wife when they’re supposed to be looking for people.  At that, the guards finally take their leave believing that BQ and MRF are not among this group of people.  BQ and MRF, for their own part, finally let out a huge sigh of relief.  As they walk away, BQ suggests to MRF that he continue using this disguise to enter the capitol.  He tells her though that now that the emperor has turned his back against his family, there’s no point in him going to the capitol – he’s already lost his place there.  Furthermore, since he’s already been painted as a traitor, he might as well join the traitors.  He tells BQ that he plans on joining his (maternal) uncle and suggests that she go with him, while they think of another way to rescue her grandfather.  BQ reminds him of his mother’s parting words – to live life for himself – but MRF tells her that after all that’s happened, he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if he just let everything go.  He’s determined to seek revenge for his family.  He again suggests that BQ leave with him, but she says she can’t.  She wants to wait for Xiao Xia who’s due to arrive soon.  She knows that once Xiao Xia’s with her, she’ll be protected.  She also wants to meet up with YC to see if he has any information concerning CY and her grandfather.  She then points out that with everyone looking for them, if they stay together, that would only be more dangerous.  MRF finally comes to terms with what BQ is saying and agrees to part ways with her at this point.  He apologizes for not having been able to help her, and BQ shakes her head reminding him that he already helped her return to the capitol.  He hugs her and says that since he doesn’t know when he’ll be able to see her again, she has to take care of herself.  BQ nods and says he has to do the same.  MRF walks away and BQ watches him.

 

 

 

MRF arrives at DFS’s camp.  He introduces himself to the guards, but neither his uncle nor his cousin is present at the moment nor are they due back any time soon.  MRF is kind of at a loss as to what to do next and is about to get back on his horse when DFS arrives.  He asks DFS to take him in and swears his allegiance to DFS, but DFS recognizes the name and knows how BQ suffered at the hands of his mother.  He’s not inclined to help.  It’s only after MRF does a fair bit of groveling that DFS agrees to give him a chance.  He calls one of the generals who’s riding with him forward and assigns MRF to this general’s camp. 

 

 

 

The general shows MRF to his tent and tells him to change into the clothes he’s been provided.  The problem is it’s a shared tent and around them, men are changing even as they speak.  There’s no way MRF, who is actually a female, live like this and so he tries to bribe the general into helping him find at least a changing room to use.  The general rolls his eyes at what he perceives as MRF being used to the finer ways of life and refuses to help.  He then tells MRF that he was instructed to train him and so he should hurry up and get to it and stop acting like a girl.  As he pushes at MRF, they get into a little tussle which reveals MRF to be a woman.  Because of this, the general suspects that MRF has been sent by the emperor to be a spy.

 

 

 

MRF is brought before DFS who finds the discovery of MRF as a female to be hilarious.  MRF pleads his case and explains that he was simply raised like a boy and has nothing to do with the emperor – how could he when the emperor is out to get him?  DFS doesn’t have much use for him though, especially now that he knows he’s actually a she.  He says he has never accepted a woman into his army and tells MRF to leave.  MRF refuses and insists on saying.  He explains that he’s there for revenge.  DFS points out that MRF should just be grateful that he’s not making an issue over the fact that he (MRF) just beat up his men.  He says that if MRF leaves now, he’ll let him off.  At that, MRF asks why DFS won’t let someone like him who’s skilled at martial arts stay in the army.  DFS responds, “Because you’re a girl.”  He asks who would be willing to go into battle with a woman by their side and, as the other men in the room chuckle in response, he offers MRF the choice of being a bodyguard, like Hei Feng, or someone who’s skilled in medicine, like Dan Sha.  MRF chooses neither because he has faith in his abilities as a skilled soldier. 

 

 

 

Once DFS realizes that MRF is not going anywhere he sends everyone out of his tent and says, “You and Zhu Ya Tou seem to have a good relationship.  I’m guessing she won’t try and avoid you.”  He then offers MRF a leadership position as a leader of his own army if he brings BQ back to his side without anyone else knowing.  MRF asks him why he wants to capture BQ, and DFS explains that the emperor’s decree concerning CY and her grandfather is an obvious ploy to make her appear in front of him.  However, if BQ falls into the hands of the emperor, she’ll die.  With him, at least, he’ll be able to protect her.  MRF asks why he thinks the emperor will definitely kill her, and DFS answers that he doesn’t need to know about that.  He just needs to bring her back safely to him.  As MRF thinks things over, DFS tells him not to worry.  He says he’d never hurt BQ because he intends to make her his wife.  This surprises MRF to hear, but DFS says there are plenty of people in Suzhou who know about him liking her so if MRF doesn’t believe him, he can go and find out for himself.  MRF gives quick consideration to DFS’s words and says, “I believe you.”  In the end, he agrees to bring BQ back to him. 

 

 

 

In a deserted cabin out in the woods somewhere, Xiao Xia arrives with YC.  They walk inside and Xiao Xiao calls out for her mistress.  BQ comes running out from her hiding place and asks if they were followed, and Xiao Xiao reassures her that they were very careful.  BQ then turns to YC and asks after CY and her grandfather.  YC tells her that he wasn’t able to visit her grandfather so he’s not sure how he’s doing, but he’s met several times with CY and he’s not doing well.  When BQ asks what’s going on with CY, YC tells her that the emperor got rid of his martial arts abilities (by sticking the dagger into his left shoulder) and after that, he asked for his family’s wine medicine.  He thinks that CY is trying to drown his worries in wine.  Anxious and worried now, BQ asks where CY is currently located, whether he’s in prison, and whether he’s capable of being rescued.  YC tells her no, he’s in the palace, which means there’s basically no hope of rescuing him.  BQ asks YC to take her into the palace.  Xiao Xia steps in to tell her she can’t do that and YC agrees, but BQ insists she can save them.  She points out that the emperor issued his decree concerning CY and her grandfather with the obvious intent of luring her out, which means that so long as she makes an appearance, the emperor won’t kill them.  When YC hears this, he asks her why she believes the emperor won’t kill CY so long as she makes an appearance, and BQ says she can’t explain the full reason but asks instead that they trust her.  YC finally agrees saying that so long as she can save CY, he’ll take her immediately.  Xiao Xia’s still not on board with this idea, but BQ tells her they don’t have a lot of time left.  She asks Xiao Xia to trust her that this is the only way she can save CY and her grandfather.  She adds that once she’s in the palace, she’ll be able to save their lives and as for how to escape after that, she’ll try and find a way to discuss it over with CY.  She instructs Xiao Xia to wait for her on the outside, and so Xiao Xia can only let her go with a promise to take care.

 

 

 

At this moment, Xiao Xia goes running towards the door of the cabin asking who’s there.  BQ follows her to the doorway and then runs forward surprised to see MRF.  She asks him what he’s still doing in the capitol and he asks, “BQ, if you go and find the emperor, is it true that the emperor will definitely kill you?”  She laughs off his question and asks who he’s been talking to.  She also asks if he’s met DFS.  MRF responds, “I guess it’s all true then.”  He then turns around and walks away.  When BQ calls after him confused, he says to her, “I’m doing this for your own benefit,” and then apologizes.  Right at that moment, men appear from all sides of the cabin to quickly surround them and subdue Xiao Xia.  BQ calls out to MRF, and he walks away.

 

 

 

BQ is lying on her back struggling with her hands and ankles bound.  DFS enters his tent and smiles when he sees her.  As he approaches, he takes in her bound state and comments that it’s too cruel and starts to untie the rope around her ankles for her.  He then helps her sit up and, removing the cloth from her mouth, says, “Zhu Ya Tou, we meet again.”  Finally free to speak, the first thing BQ asks about is Xiao Xia and YC.  DFS tells her that they’ve been locked someplace but without his orders, no one will dare to touch them.  The second thing BQ says to him is that it looks like he’s still determined to capture her in order to obtain the Biluotian treasures.  DFS sits down next to her and points out if that really was the case, he would’ve taken her the last time they were together.  He then tells her not to worry.  He’s Cheng Wang’s descendant and in this entire army, only his grandfather is able to control him, but his grandfather doesn’t know she’s with him so right now, and so she’s quite safe.  BQ responds by asking him to let her go.  She tells him that the emperor’s going to chop her grandfather’s head off in a few days and she has to go and save him.  DFS responds by asking her how she plans on saving him when he’s been hidden deep somewhere.  BQ says she can go before the emperor to plead her case.  After all, the Zhu Family has never wanted to participate in this rebellion.  They only owed DFS’s family money and she didn’t know his family would turn out to be traitors.  DFS asks her if she thinks the emperor will really believe her.  He tells her to not walk to her death, but BQ insists that so long as she makes things clear with the emperor, he’ll let go of her family.  DFS disagrees.  He says the fact that the emperor has captured CY and her grandfather means that he must know her real background, and that means if she appears before him, there’s no way he’ll let her go.  Instead, he’ll ask her where the Biluotian map and sphere are and then take her to Biluotian where he’ll make a sacrifice out of her.  BQ stands up asks what if the emperor doesn’t know.  She emphasizes that her grandfather is her only relative and begs him to let her go.  DFS smiles and sits her back down.  He then basically tells her that there’s no way he’s going to ever let her go because he also doesn’t want her to come in between him and his plans for the emperor.  Poor BQ is stuck!

 

 

 

Elsewhere in the camp, MRF is sitting in a tent looking lost in his thoughts when his cousin comes running in excited to find him there.  He shares that his father was also happy to hear of his arrival and will be over soon too.  Yun Lang then takes a look around the tent and then compliments MRF for being so amazing as to be elevated to such a high position when he only just joined them, while he’s only at his current position after having handed over a herd of horses. 

 

 

 

Yun Lang asks after the whereabouts of MRF’s right hand man and also asks after his aunt.  MRF tells him that Mo Manor was confiscated and that his mother, Mo Bo, and his right hand man are all dead.  Half of the people who used to work for him are also dead, while the other half who lived aren’t doing any better.  Yun Lang asks how that could be when his father sent a letter to his mother a while back.  MRF asnwers that it’s all his fault.  If his mother hadn’t waited for him, then she couldn’t escaped earlier.  Yun Lang also feels bad because if it hadn’t been for Fei Yun Bao, Mo Manor wouldn’t haven’t run into any problems.  MRF stands and tells him there’s no use in crying over spilled milk.  As he walks around the tent, he tells his cousin that what he has to do now is gain power through DFS, to do everything DFS wants him to do, and to become a powerful general so that he can personally kill the emperor in order to avenge his mother.

 

 

 

Xiao Xia and YC are locked up in a cabin.  When YC notices that Xiao Xia has finished her piece of bread, he offers her the rest of his.  She says that every time he only eats a little bit and gives her the rest, and asks if his body will be able to handle that.  He tells her it’s no problem as he actually has a small appetite, even if he is a man, and encourages her to eat up.  Xiao Xia asks him if her appetite is too big, and YC reassures her that’s not the case.  He says she uses up too much energy practicing her martial arts skills [Ha!  No lie, I almost wrote “marital arts skills” before I caught the typo.  LOL.] and that the more she practices, the hungrier she’ll be.  He then asks her if she knows why his martial arts skills are so bad, and tells her that if he added up all the time he has ever spent practicing, it still wouldn’t amount to the amount of practicing that she does in one year. 

 

 

 

Episode ends. 

 

 

 

ohmygawd... don't know how i missed this whole episode recap with MRF.... 

 

and...PFFFTTTTTTTTT it's because of sexist patriarchal attitudes like DFS and all the other men like him that MRF had to live a lie as a boy. MRF was an accomplished, highly skilled martial artist and praised genius....until "he" became a "she." Hm, actually this show doesn't really treat its female characters all that well overall is my feeling. Even HBQ had her identity kept in the dark by Uncle, then the ML likes to make plans around HBQ but not necessarily ask her opinion. Let's not even talk about the other women on the show. 

[vtxy]

 

7 hours ago, themarchioness said:

 

You make me feel better in that I wasn't the only one feeling disappointed by him in episode 48.   
 

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If the grandfather is still alive (and I hope he is), I don't think the emperor can afford to betray CY by killing the grandfather anyway.  The whole point of the grandfather being alive is that, so long as he lives, CY will do the emperor's bidding and return to his side.  If the grandfather is killed, that gives CY no incentive and he can just go and do his own thing -- which is what the emperor was afraid of and why CY pointed out he had BQ's grandfather in his hands.  So yay, I'm glad we all seem to be in agreement that the grandfather has hope!

 

 

As for your other question . . .

 

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It bothers me a little bit, especially because I also feel bad for BQ.  But like you said, there is some logic behind his decision.  He needs her reactions to be real so that people won't be able to learn anything from her.  (This is especially true of someone like DFS who knows her well, and knows how good she is at telling tales.)  Also, I think he sometimes doesn't want her knowing things to avoid her being able to be used as a tool by others -- which is why, as an example, he waited so long to tell her the true prophecy of the Biluotian priestess.  It was only when her life became in peril that, for her own protection, he told her that last bit. 

 

In this particular instance, I'm also not sure how CY would be able to meet with BQ to give her the head's up.  She's pretty closely watched and I can't imagine he would want to do anything that would risk him exposing his plans.  Although, having said that, I did feel like he came close to saying something when he went to entreat her to eat her meals, but he saved himself by saying words of encouragement from her grandfather instead.  (Also, if her grandfather is indeed alive, I wonder if CY was also trying to give her hope about that by invoking her grandfather at that moment?) 

 

I guess it's like the saying goes though: no pain, no gain.   

 

 

I'm glad I had time to watch ep 48 and 49 back to back! Otherwise the disappointment would have bothered me as much as it bothered you haha. And yes I'm hopeful too! 

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Just afraid to be TOO optimistic about her granddad cos this show overall has turned out to be much sadder than I bargained for hahahah

 

And yes your points about him having not much opportunity to let her know makes sense! I just wish the circumstances weren't so depressing for everyone. 

 

Can't believe we only have one more day of airing to go!

[themarchioness]

@taeunfighting, I felt the same way as you in terms of understanding the raw episodes of 49 and 49.  Between the language, the fact that there was so much going on, and my emotions all a whirl, it was sometimes hard to follow what exactly was going on.  I know I need to rewatch those two episodes to properly understand and appreciate, and I know it'll be easier now that I've watched them once, but still, I'm not ready to be reminded of all the emotional upheaval that I went through.  LOL.  As for your other questions:

 

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When we first saw the previews of DFS being stabbed by his grandfather, I wasn't certain he would die.  People tend to forget that what we see in previews may not be what actually ends up happening -- because there is always more to an episode than what we see in a 1-3 minute preview.  And, it's for that reason, I try not to say one way or another what will end up happening and prefer to speak in terms of possibilities until we finally get to see what's happening.  However, if I had to make an educated guess about that preview, my prediction is that he really will die.  If you'd asked me a few episodes back, I'd still say his chances of surviving are 50-50, but now there are only 2 episodes left.  In the amount of time that remains, it'd be far easier/quicker to kill him off than try to explain how he is able to survive that scene and then what happens to him after.  Also, with the emotions running across both BQ and CY's faces when they see DFS stabbed by his grandfather, the impact of that moment would probably be best preserved with him staying dead.  But, again, since it's just a preview, I don't want to dismiss the possibility that he lives... maybe he at least lives long enough to help BQ rescue CY from the well, I don't know. 

 

As for the scene you mentioned from the intro credits,  I don't think we've seen that moment yet either.  I certainly don't remember having scene the white outfit that CY is wearing from any of the episodes we've watched so far, but it does look similar to the one he's wearing in the previews for upcoming BIluotian scene, so I think you're right that the scene will likely come before or after the well scene. 

 

 

 

@vtxy, right???  Talk about yesterday being the worst day to choose to work from home, LOL.  I thought I was being sooo clever by staying home and watching one episode over lunch instead of having to wait until evening to watch both, but nope!  That ended up being a major backfire!  Who knew yesterday's pair of episodes would be best watched together?  LOL  I'd like to say I've learned my lesson, but nope again!  Totally planning on working from home on Tuesday so I can do the same thing -- it's the final day!  I can't resist. 

 

1 hour ago, vtxy said:

And yes your points about him having not much opportunity to let her know makes sense! I just wish the circumstances weren't so depressing for everyone.

 

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As depressing as it is, I admit that it's beautiful to watch.    That scene where BQ's not eating so DFS gives up and goes to CY?  I love how CY's so biting about it and how he's all, "You told me to not have anything to do with her anymore, so why are you here?" and then all DFS has to say is, "She hasn't eaten for 3 days," and CY goes running out of his tent.  His heartache when he enters DFS's tent and sees her lying there weak and listless . . . It's palpable.  (It's like when he watches over when she's next to DFS in the fireworks scene.  I just feel the love surrounding them.)  And when BQ cuts him down by asking why he's there and telling him that they have nothing to do with each other anymore, I feel her pain as much as I do his.  It's beautiful. 

 

(It's either that or I'm a masochist.  Haha!)

 

 

 

36 minutes ago, angelangie said:

can i just ask on a daring term that we will have a good ending?  

 

i know about your emotional coastal now lols however i couldnt help myself and ask  

 

I still believe there will be a good/happy ending.  Even during my emotional rollercoaster ride yesterday, I never doubted that.  (I just hoped more people would be able to join them in that happy ending... *sigh*)

 

[themarchioness]

4 hours ago, ating said:

Thk you @themarchioness, the recaps hv been great. Since i join gp late..wondering if u hv the links to all previous recaps ! 

 

As a matter of fact, I do!  I compiled them last week for a friend and I've added links for the recaps shared since then.  (See all links below cut.)

 

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Note: I didn't start recapping until midway through as, originally, I was not watching "ahead" (and then I got impatient, LOL).  There's also a gap between 25-32 because I was away. 

 

Ep 24

Ep 25

Ep 32

Ep 33

Ep 34

Ep 35

Ep 36

Ep 37

Ep 38

Ep 39

Ep 40

Ep 41

Ep 42

Ep 43

Ep 44

Ep 45

Ep 46

 

 

 

Enjoy!

[vtxy]

@themarchioness hahaha I have a feeling that the final two episodes might be even harder to watch separately! But I know, who can resist watching as soon as it's out?? At least I know I can't 

 

Regarding your comment about the sad but beautiful scenes, I have to agree! You can really feel the emotions. I wouldn't mind them going through some pain now if I could be sure they would have a happy ending. And to be honest,

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the only death that really upsets me so far is Xiao Xia's (and BQ grandpa if it really happens). But just her death is enough to make me feel like everything is so depressing. I was really hoping for a happy ending with her and YC. They were so cute :'(

 

The other characters that died/are going to die based on previews (Jian Sheng, MRF mom, MRF, DFS), I'm not too attached to them :X

 

[ck1Oz]

@themarchioness your recaps are very detailed. And it looks as if it takes hours. Just chill and watch the last 2 episodes. Thanks for all you've done.

 

 

Like others before me have said,  just do a basic next time. For your sanity. I am someone who burned out subbing and editing dramas. And I didn't enjoy my last drama which ended a few weeks ago with whiney viewers. I was channel manager with a viki drama. So saying recaps- short ones- will be less tiring for you.

 

In meantime with the way things are going I am stopping at ep 34 and not finishing this drama. Ergh.

 

 

 

[achng]

2 hours ago, vtxy said:

@themarchioness hahaha I have a feeling that the final two episodes might be even harder to watch separately! But I know, who can resist watching as soon as it's out?? At least I know I can't 

 

Regarding your comment about the sad but beautiful scenes, I have to agree! You can really feel the emotions. I wouldn't mind them going through some pain now if I could be sure they would have a happy ending. And to be honest,

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the only death that really upsets me so far is Xiao Xia's (and BQ grandpa if it really happens). But just her death is enough to make me feel like everything is so depressing. I was really hoping for a happy ending with her and YC. They were so cute :'(

 

The other characters that died/are going to die based on previews (Jian Sheng, MRF mom, MRF, DFS), I'm not too attached to them :X

 

 

Allow me to add to the list...

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Based on previews - Yun Lang, Dan Sha...

Based on my speculation only - LQW, BJF... because does it make sense for the two villains to live when everyone else dies?!

 

*sigh*, sorry I don't consider it a happy ending if OTP are seriously the only two people surviving at the very end

 

 

 

 

[themarchioness]

3 hours ago, vtxy said:

@themarchioness hahaha I have a feeling that the final two episodes might be even harder to watch separately! But I know, who can resist watching as soon as it's out?? At least I know I can't 

 

Regarding your comment about the sad but beautiful scenes, I have to agree! You can really feel the emotions. I wouldn't mind them going through some pain now if I could be sure they would have a happy ending. And to be honest,

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the only death that really upsets me so far is Xiao Xia's (and BQ grandpa if it really happens). But just her death is enough to make me feel like everything is so depressing. I was really hoping for a happy ending with her and YC. They were so cute :'(

 

The other characters that died/are going to die based on previews (Jian Sheng, MRF mom, MRF, DFS), I'm not too attached to them :X

 

 

Hahaha, I know, I'm a glutton for punishment!  (Or maybe I'll be richly rewarded for my efforts?????)   As for your other comment:

 

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MRF's mom deserved what she got, as far as I'm concerned.  She lived with so much hate that death was the only thing capable of stopping it.  In a way, it was probably a release for her, so maybe death for MRF's mom is actually an act of kindness -- all things considered.  Jiang Sheng was loyal to the person he served (MRF) and never did anything to hurt anybody (who didn't deserve it from his master's perspective) so on that basis, I can't say he deserved his death.  But, he wasn't central to the OTP or our other main characters so totally understandable that we feel unaffected by his death. 

 

If the previews are telling the whole story and MRF dies, that'll suck as I feel that he and BQ have a genuine relationship.  But, on the other hand, their relationship is now an awkward one thanks to his mother's actions, so perhaps his death will have meaning if it is through that that he will be able to atone for her sins.  Similarly, DFS's death (if it also happens) would have meaning if it was able to make up for his grandfather's ambitions and and quell the battle for the throne, once and for all, returning peace to the land.

 

You didn't mention Yun Lang and Dan Sha, who we've also been guessing will die, but about them I can only say, I've predicted they would die from the very beginning so as much as I do like Yun Lang very much, I've long reconciled myself to that one.  It's to the point where I actually think I'm over-prepared for his death.  Heh.  As I've always said, he's too earnest, too simple, too focused on what's in front of him, and too hot-headed to be long for this world.  Dan Sha, as someone devoted to him, would only follow him towards death.

 

As for Xiao Xia's death, I agree.  That one probably hurts the most so far.  Like you, I wanted her to survive this final battle and live happily forever after with YC.  As I also wrote yesterday, because I found her death utterly preventable, it actually made me a little angry to see how she died.  But since she did die, I've thought about it a fair bit and have managed to reconcile myself to the writer's decision to kill off that character (even if it still doesn't make me happy).  When XX and YC have their final conversation, she apologizes and says she never could tell him how she really felt because she had to protect BQ, but she finally admits to liking him and says she's sorry she can't be with him.  From that conversation, I got the sense that even if she had lived, XX never would've been with YC.  Her loyalty to BQ and devotion to the Zhu Family are simply too great for her to up and leave them in order to marry.  In that vein, I also recognize that a marriage between XX and YC likely would've been an uphill battle.  XX is a servant and by all accounts, YC comes from a family background that is equally as impressive as CY's, minus the royalty bit, so I suspect his family would not have been as receptive as he liked to think they would be. 

 

Of course, the fan shipper heart in me totally believes that BQ and CY would've helped them overcome all those obstacles.  With a prince's support, how could YC's family continuing objecting to the marriage?  And XX needs to protect BQ?  Well, just let them move in next door!  After all, we know BQ would be only too happy to see XX married well and happy.  But I know things didn't necessarily work that way back then, so fine, if the writer needed to kill off a meaningful character - one we actually cared about - in order to add depth to the story and show us how painful everything is in this final climax to the story, I can understand why she chose XX.  Just don't try and make me happy about it.  I will miss her.  And the fanficcer in me will totally keep her alive in my heart.  Haha.

 

 

[Dramajunkie2020]

Hi everyone, have been lurking on this thread and am finally joining this conversation to share a little something. I love love this drama, particularly the leads (Zhang Binbin is so yummy) and their amazing chemistry!!!

Saw a preview of the ending on YouTube, and I’m pretty sure what ending we are going to get. Don’t want to spoil it for anyone, so I’m not going to say anything or give my opinions. 

Spoiler Alert!

https://youtu.be/coXJ_wV0f2c

Happy Chen yu day everyone!

[hlntxn]

Cried so bad at episode 48 when Xiao Xia died and confessed herself to Yuan Chong... 

And when CY told BQ to forget him... my heart... 

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7 hours ago, themarchioness said:

 

As a matter of fact, I do!  I compiled them last week for a friend and I've added links for the recaps shared since then.  (See all links below cut.)

 

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Note: I didn't start recapping until midway through as, originally, I was not watching "ahead" (and then I got impatient, LOL).  There's also a gap between 25-32 because I was away. 

 

Ep 24

Ep 25

Ep 32

Ep 33

Ep 34

Ep 35

Ep 36

Ep 37

Ep 38

Ep 39

Ep 40

Ep 41

Ep 42

Ep 43

Ep 44

Ep 45

Ep 46

 

 

 

Enjoy!

@themarchionessmillion thank yous!  Really enjoy reading your recaps , know it is not easy with day job and all!