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Scenes I've loved BEFORE MH & YJ got together YJ gives MH her phone number on paper and he was about to burn it. He's so silly! It's like he burns it without thinking, and then that thought appears to him that he would never see/hear her again and it's like he can't handle that and it jolts him awake to save her phone number lol. The scene on the plane where he was looking at her photos. He smiles at her photos and then instantly becomes grumpy face when the couple photos of YJ/DH appears. Unconsciously jealous! He initially was offended when the flight attendant mistakenly calls YJ his girlfriend, but then he looks so happy looking at her smiling pics. I love nuances in these scenes. It's very subtle, but the attraction to her was very clear from the start. The board meeting scene where he calls her phone number by accident and is scrambling to end the call. LOL. I love that he was still comtemplating what to list her in his phone as, her name or substitute driver. Her name in his phone is too personal for him, so he thinks naming her substitute driver in his phone will somehow put some distance between them. He was already fighting his attraction to her here, early on. He gets drunk and wakes up in her home. LOOL. I just love that in front of DH, MH is calm & collected, but in front of YJ, he is a stumbling MESS! Again, scenes with nuances, it just goes to show how much power she had over him that early on and neither knew it. When he made her try on dresses. When she went to try on the first red dress, the attendant screams. He runs over immediately, worried about YJ. And then when she tries on the black dress, it's a millisecond of a scene, but you can see in that split second how attracted he was to her wearing that dress. How pretty she must have looked to him. When she went missing, MH legit panicked. Driving everywhere looking for her, screaming at people to reveal her whereabouts. Interrupting other people's day jobs to ask where she is. He finds her working at a canteen. He waits for her to finish work till nighttime. This silly man. How do you not know you are in love? I don't even know if he even slept in a bed that night or if he just waited in his car. Then he shows up in the cafeteria and closes his eyes for hours. Just so she would come back with him where she can stay by his side. He holds her head steady when she falls asleep, and bends his head so far sideways just so he makes sure she gets in safely, that she is now near him again, in the same city, same vicinity. Now fully aware of his feelings/attraction towards her, MH tries to get into her good graces. He wants to look good in her eyes. He picks her up from work. He tries to explain things, it's not his idea to have DH show up at the restaurant for the tasting menu. Don't get mad at me. It's a man wanting to look good in front of the woman he likes. YJ gives him a sweet cream bun, he initally refuses and her invitation for a meal inside, she leaves the car, and again you can see his subtle face expressions, he clearly wants to say yes but his pride won't let him but when she leaves his legs just takes him to her unconsciously. The man who HATES sweets, made sure he ate the sweet bun that YJ made for him especially, he made sure he finished every bite, I'm sure LOL. He makes her sing Happy Birthday to him and have Gwang Soo take that polaroid photo. He basically spent the whole series crushing that polaroid photo of YJ/DH. He wants to have one of just 2 of them, a precious memory he wants to keep. It's clear there's a pattern in these scenes that I like. That no matter how cruel he was to her, if given enough time for them to be alone, she easily breaks down his walls without trying. In front of DH, he's a terrifying wolf with threats and accusations. In front of YJ, he's a puppy that want her attention, good or bad. In these moments it's clear his head says one thing, but his heart wants another. Such good writing and subtle acting.

I didn't really see anyone discuss this but I wanted to talk about the difference of MH's love for JH vs YJ. I never really got the feeling that MH loved JH. Not in the same way that he loved YJ, anyway..mostly felt like JH was the one before the ONE. In the earlier episodes when there was a flashback of them on the bed in her apartment, she mentions he always drink and comes to her late at night. We can only assume he was a terrible boyfriend. He uses her as a breath of fresh air from the money-rich lifestyle he encounters during the day, where money provides his entertainment in the daytime, and JH provides his nighttime entertainment. In one flashback scene, she goads him to declare his love & he basically has to tell her he loves her 3 times before she even believes it. Or if he even meant it. On top of that, he doesn't even let her know that he's engaged to SY. Then she goes missing for 6 months. He presumably starts messing around with other girls, like the one in the first epsiode from the hotel (I'm assuming she's not the first girl since JH gone missing). Technically they weren't even broken up yet so I count that as cheating tbh. And while SY goes batsh*t crazy later in the episodes, her initial assessment of MH/JH was correct, is this really about missing JH or is this about him passing on his guilt to someone else? And SY was right, in the 6 months she went missing, he was living just fine, never missed a meal in his life. And even when JH died….he lived without her just fine, honestly. Deep down, I can assume MH realizes what a horrible boyfriend he was to her, so when she dies as a indirect result of his carelessness of his feelings/actions towards her, guilt hits him very hard, more so than love I believe. It doesn't help that she was also pregnant with his child. I believe JH was the catalyst for him to want something more than money. But he couldn't quite grasp what it was that he wanted. That's why he constantly asks Gwang Soo if he believes in love and that "Love doesn't exist"...I didn't really understand why he would say that if he truly loved JH. Maybe he saw that whatever "love" was, it didn't seem to overcome his own cowardice. Which explains why later on he constantly pits YJ and DH against each other. Because he wanted to prove that since his version of love towards JH, wasn't enough, so that every form of love would crumble like his as well. Until he fell so helplessly in love with YJ, it hit him harder than the car that hit JH, lol. Feelings he felt familar arose (from his relationship with JH).....but also something foreign as well, something so strong and intense that it threatened his entire existence, TRUE love. Pure, selflessness, and unconditional. That's why he was so persistent on persuing on "who the hit-and-run killer" was. NOT because he was trying to find justice for JH, nope sorry MH has always been selfish lol but ...because in his head, as long as he proves that YJ is NOT the killer, he convinces himself it's okay to have these kind of intense romantic feelings towards YJ. He feels guilty about having feelings for the girl that killed JH. And he acknowledges this when he visits her ashes later on, that to JH, he's always been the bad guy. But what to do? He can't let YJ go. So now, fully and truly in love, his hairstyle changes forever, LOL. Puppy eyes everywhere, everywhere YJ is, his eyes follow and whimper, like a puppy waiting for his owner. He spend countless hours waiting for her to come home, we saw a glimpse of that on screen, but really off the screen he must have waited for her each time she left his sight. His reason he'll say is to punish her, but deep down he longs to see her. He needs to see her to breathe, his own words. He kneels for her in front his own father and before YJ when he kissed her tenderly...He has kneeled before no one. He was willing to give up his entire empire to be with YJ. I read some earlier posts that his initial violent kisses were wrong…but that’s always been MH’s style lol, ALL or NOTHING. It was the only way to force her to see him in a romantic light. Cause he had been trying and she shuts it down (although kindly) each time. He drives her home after work and opens the heavy gate for her. He offers her back the bakery. He tells her not to be mad at him, it wasn’t his idea this time to have her see DH at the restaurant, she thanks him politely and goes inside her home. She rejects his first kiss attempt at the restaurant. She goes to his house to clean. He tells her he sent the staff on vacation a few days ago. But when she’s cleaning, there’s not even a speck of dirt lol. Clearly, he just sent the staff away only for the day so he would have an excuse to see her and keep her there. He looks sad as she leaves the house. But overall she just curtly does as she’s told, never leaving any room for him to progress the romance. Even though he is clearly trying. Trying to hint at her that’s he’s really really interested. And trying to get in her good graces. So that violent first kiss was warranted. He can sense that she feels the same way, the same sexual tension, but she’ll never act on it. So he did. I love tropes where she fell first, but he fell harder. But the drama had made its own category lol. He fell first, fell harder, and slammed into the ground & never wanted to get back up LOL. Anyways back to the discussion. JH said she wanted to die before MH. and MH said he wanted to die before YJ. I've always felt like the one who loves more in the relationship says that. Not that I'm saying YJ's love for MH is any less than his love for her. But the parallel stands on its own. It felt like JH/SY had to put a lot of effort in maintaining their relationship with MH, platonic or otherwise. But for YJ, it felt really easy for her to command his attention, merely by breathing. I also believe that is why SY tried to used the same tactics on MH with JH and YJ. From SY's own experience with MH, even when he was with JH, money/Kgroup seemed more important to him. So she tries the same methods with YJ, ie threatening his claim to their inheritance/company...BUT what she fails to realize is......THIS ISN'T THE SAME WOMAN. JH is not YJ. And if I'm being honest, let's say JH survived that car accident or it never happened....something tells me she doesn't have the same willpower and tenacity that YJ has. She would have crumbled under MH's father and eventually she would have had to leave with her baby quietly. I just wanted to comment on this. Because I keep seeing comments comparing the "same" love between MH/JH and MH/YJ, which to me....really never felt equal at all.

Wow, looks like I've discovered this gem of a drama 11 years too late to discuss with y'all lol. Got so many feels and wanted to discuss! But maybe I'll just talk to myself in this forum to get those feelings out lol.