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I won't ever be able to stop falling more and more in love with this little 184.5cm human encyclopedia of arts. 

It's thrilling and a bit frightening to follow him through these tumultuous days, but I believe if he plays his cards right, he will emerge as a different kind of idol, multi-talented yet humble, who voices his own voice instead of being just another cog in the entertainment machine, who can please the fans and general audience with pop-ish image yet also keep for himself a private artistic corner, like a secret garden that he would sometimes invite us to visit.

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1 hour ago, gayyoxx said:

 

3/ Rumours are rumours and I believe most of us here will acknowledge rumours as rumours. Even if personally some of us believe in the rumours, the believers will not shove the rumours down everyone else's throat as truth.

4/ On the darker side of things: sadly, the most that we have is rumours/speculation now. Some of us will disagree, some of us will agree. Some of the rumours will be proven as correct, some will be proven incorrect. Banning rumours from this thread will surely make this thread die, yes?

Sorry I wasn't clear. I have no problem with news about JY and ZZ, (hardcore, even x-rated) shipping or speculation (the Goro necklace) or general rumors, like JY may get this show or ZZ may sing that song, what I don't like is news about drama in the fandom itself and unsubstantiated, improbable rumors from mega-delulu fans (like the ZZ in Dandong rumor I believe came from just one fan(?) and it was so vague, so surreal yet people ran with it anyway).

I don't know, it's just my feelings and opinions, and yes, we need different perspectives. Who's to decide which rumor is plausible? I understand we have to cling onto every last thread possible now that there's almost nothing left between them, but feeding ourselves on drama between many fandom factions and easy-to-disprove therefore easy-to-be-disappointed rumors isn't sustainable anyway.

@Scandani I don't want to spam another reply so I'm just gonna edit to add: I've seen posts about fandom wars here, but I didn't generalize in my post. There were posters who brought Weibo wars into this thread before and I didn't comment back then. And I'm sorry I respectfully disagree with keeping calling Xu Weizhou "wifey" just because it's habitual, the character, maybe ok, the actor, no. It's like keeping calling Eddie Redmayne "Danish girl". Also, it's one of the elements I truly don't like about Addicted and boy's love genre in general, in that someone has to be the "wife", it doesn't work like that irl. And irl, ZZ is not anyone's wifey. ZZ's fans are understandably offended with manips that put him in women's costume for example and those are posted here too. Misgendering someone isn't ever a nice thing to do.

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I haven't ever believed the ZZ being in Dandong rumor for one minute. JY is literally frozen from almost all public/media activities right now, ZZ is in the middle of arranging the promotion of his album, and they both cannot risk being seen together, perhaps not ever but at least in the near future. How stupid would they be to agree to rendezvous like that if there was really something between them? I'm not saying there's NOT, because I've been spazzing over JY's Goro necklace (how's that progressing? is there any fan taking responsibility for the gift? did JY buy it himself???) but to meet secretly anywhere not in Beijing or Shanghai? LOL

Fans have been having this weird competition about who's gonna succeed more between the two of them, and now it's turning to this even weirder victimization race about who's having it worse. Frankly, it's ridiculously unfair to tie them together like that, they met 6 months ago and had one acting job together. Even if there was season 2, they wouldn't want to be referred as YuZhou (or ZhouYu as ZZ insists lol) for the rest of their lives. Sorry, the more delulu couple fans, I do not ship them that way. Yet the fans have been fighting continuously about everything and anything, when are they going to let it go? forever a contest between them two? when will it stop? Isn't there already enough drama caused by invisible powers that be? That's why I tend to avoid fandom drama and baseless rumors, it's really hard to engage when there are mud slinging and pot stirring all the time.

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The truth is JY and ZZ are both caught in the perfect storm. Good looking guys with captivating personalities and mesmerizing chemistry together, propelled with the couple effect from just one low budgeted web drama. It has lifted them to unbelievable height and now it's also sinking them under unprecedented obstacles. It's premature to say but I still do not know how or how long their careers (they haven't even been given time to build proper, legitimate careers yet) can recover after all this tbh. There are many plausible reasons why the authorities, both from the gov. and the industry brought the hammer on them, but I believe the biggest is not even the "condoning homosexuality" angle (that's why the un-coupling effort from only-fan is miserably comical and useless imo) but the "easy stardom" angle.

JY has struggled in showbiz before, he's done various modeling jobs and game shows without success, Addicted's Gu Hai was the missing spark that any budding entertainer knows only comes once or twice in a lifetime, and contrary to his silly/aloof demeanor, he's NOT the happy-go-lucky type, I believe he knows this is his one chance to break in and he has been killing it with all the deals. Now his career is seemingly imploding and some of his fans, mostly acquired through Addicted or because of Addicted, have been blaming everything from the authorities to CJD and her company and ZZ and the Thai fanmeeting, ironically trying to erase Addicted/ZZ out of this world, effectively rendering him into this helpless, unprotected victim and martyr. (#onlycareaboutHJY is the most cringey hashtag I've ever encountered tbh)

I've seen fewer venomous attacks from ZZ and couple fans, but there are and it's no less ridiculous. In the series, ZZ's role is decidedly less prominent so it's understandable he'd get fewer fans from the series, and I share the frustration of ZZ fans when couple-fans go overboard with their uke/feminine/submissive perception/depiction of ZZ. But without fan infighting, ZZ is already the one who has endured much worse scandals, and while he might have many talents and determine what his career goals are, he definitely lacks the actual skill and resource to navigate the intricacies of showbiz right now. He's a person with broad appeal, he needs to win over the general audience and overbearing, possessive fans do not help.

And the most fervent couple-fans, like wow, not everything they do has to have anything to do with each other, simple as that. They're guys with over 20 years of many relationships, and for the most part you can only see them through some camera lens and hear them through secondhand words. Try to be a bit reasonable. You're fanning the fire in the wrong way.

Imagine a new face that is backed and promoted properly by the powers that be, with big budgeted campaigns and prestigious roles, yet cannot reach the same popularity of one previously (mostly) unknown model and one kid who's still attending acting school, with nothing more than a boy's love drama under their belts. Literally famous overnight without any monetary cost, ROI = infinite. And the offers kept pouring in, imagine if there was a season 2, if they could both mining the couple image for a while, if magazines and shows kept spamming their faces, and they graduated the webdrama rank into proper stars as quickly as they became popular out of nowhere... Yes, it may be the most conspiratorial theory of all, but somewhere up there someone(s) is absolutely very displeased about CJD/JY/ZZ, and add in (getting famous by promoting) homosexuality, teenage sex depiction, and sensitive army-related plot, no wonder the ban comes hard and comes twice.

 

Uh... what am I trying to say? Ah, yes, they are definitely inadvertent victims, of a bigger cultural purifying plan, of behind the scene intrigues, of politics... BUT NOT VICTIMS OF EACH OTHER. Don't blame the victim. Rationalize external reasons and forces all you want but they themselves did nothing wrong. They got popular together and now they're both suffering career-wise, there's no need to keep compare them, just as there's no need for fans to try to isolate them before (are you happy now?) and bring them together now (how?). I don't know if one day they will regret Addicted (or already have) if the winds don't change for the better, but for couple-fans, accept the fact they're (for now) ex-colleagues, effectively strangers; and for only-fans, why don't you just stop any crazy bitching "on behalf of/in protection of/for the good of/" either of them? They aren't gonna meet face to face blatantly, in public, they will go their separate ways, have their separate lives and work on separate projects (if any wow I'm bitter). The only thing keeps them in each other's life after all this is, quite frankly, only the two of them themselves. Least of all overzealous, vicious fans.

I'm in this awkward spot for not being quite a couple nor only-fan, I love them together but I actually don't care to speculate their sexuality, I'm far more interested in their personalities and friendship. I have my bias (~pls respect ZZ's gender, he's not anyone's wife~ guess who lol) yet I can't promise to keep investing my time and money and emotion like a dedicated stan, but I do want to follow both of their careers, to support them and wait patiently for a day when they can officially stand together on stage once more. And Addicted still has a special place in me after all. This is quite honestly the last haven for peace so please, I do beg you guys, don't bring fandom drama/rumors into this thread.

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Blushing!ZZ is my favorite ZZ!!! ZZ is overwhelmed by your support!!! [I don't watermark my GIFs and I don't actually care about my credit so spread this freely to brighten up the world ]

I hope ZhouZhou's album will be a sizeable success! Whoever helps this precious human sunshine achieve his dreams, thank you! Whatever I could do to keep that smile shining, I would.

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Small, happy book scenes in Qingdao for the weekend

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In a blink, they'd already been in Qingdao for two weeks, since the second week, they had stopped living in hotels and rented an apartment. Firstly it saved money, secondly there was no need to go out and in multiple times a day. They hid inside throughout the day for schoolwork, walked by the beach a little in the evening, life was comfortable.

“Sounds like someone’s knocking.” BLY looked at the door.

GH stood up and opened it.

“Hello, delivery service, this is your package, please sign.” 

GH’s face fell, needless to say, it was books. These days BLY didn’t have anything to do, he kept browsing books online, from textbooks to reference books to exercise books, almost a hundred now, delivery man came every day, GH signed every time. Furthermore, most of these books were for GH, BLY only supervised, so whenever GH saw the delivery man, he always wanted to give him a kick.

“Why are you buying books again?” GH pouted, “Can’t you buy something else?”

“What is there to buy? We aren’t in need of anything.”

“Why yes we are!” GH played with the lighter in his hand, “Why don’t you buy a box of condoms?”

“A box of...,” BLY clenched his teeth.

“There’s also sex toys, yesterday I went online to look around, there are so many kinds, it would be fun to play with, I’ve never tried. Why don’t you take notice? Those are the things that can actually improve our quality of life, and you buy... books!!! I don’t care!”

GH threw the book at hand on the ground with disdain.

BLY gave him a cold look, “Pick it up.”

GH bitterly looked at BLY for 3 seconds, but BLY didn’t need to count down, GH had voluntarily picked the book up already.

“The book I gave you the other day, are you done with it?” BLY asked.

“I’m done.”

BLY skeptically scanned GH, now acting suspiciously righteous.

“Let me check.”

GH gave BLY the book, BLY opened it, and lo! Everything was done. He had already confiscated the solutions, so this was all GH’s doing, so to avoid GH’s trickery, he checked the answers to see if GH just wrote down nonsense, but he was pleased with the result.

“So? I didn’t cheat right?” GH reached out to get the book back.

BLY’s hand suddenly pulled back, pressed as hard as he could on the book, he sensed something wrong with the book’s thickness. He opened it again and looked at the page numbers, promptly blew up. What are you trying to pull? Every other page was missing, every other page was ripped out, needless to say, by that naughty little richard simmons.

GH saw his scheme fall apart, quickly ran away. BLY chased behind, finally caught him in the bathroom, picked up a mop along the way, whipped him relentlessly until GH crawled into a corner and pleaded.

“Don’t hit me, baobei, you hit me dead, who’s gonna serve you?”

“I don’t need you, I can live well by myself.”

GH turned around and pushed BLY into the wall, his thing pressed directly against little Yin Zi, shamelessly rubbing, he felt BLY shiver, then bit his ear. “Without my size, who can satiate your hunger, huh? With those hands of yours, however fast you stroke, it still can’t compare with my speed...”

So GH had to take another savage whip.

[GY came to Qingdao to find them, GH’s father also sent a team there to retrieve them, and a short gangster movie happened. A couple of confrontations with guns after, GWT pulled the team home and halted the hunt. It was almost new year and they finally had real peace (for dirty role playing lol).]

The two of them came across a convenience store, GH patted BLY’s shoulder, “Wait here, I’m getting a pack of cigarette.”

There were a lot of people, a long queue already formed at the checkout.

BLY, bored with waiting, looked around and saw a tanghulu (skewered candied haws) shop. It’s not easy to find a place here with tanghulu ah! His eyes lit up with happiness, he pulled the store’s door to alert GH, without hearing any feedback, entered the candy shop.

Holidays are crowded with people, beside locals, there are visitors and tourists. Even candy shop had queues, BLY hated standing in queue, normally it was GH who pushed and shoved to buy stuff, but he couldn’t contain his craving today, it had been a long while, he missed that taste.

GH came out from the store, there was no sight of BLY.

Scanning around, everywhere were full of people, but there was no BLY.

They didn’t bring their phones while going out together, there was no way to contact if separated.

Were it a normal day, it’d be fine to just come home, they are two guys, what is there to worry about? At most, just take a cab. But this was crucial time, a tiny little situation could easily send GH into hypersensitive mode.

Cold sweat pouring, GH nervously stood there for a minute and started running around looking for BLY. He didn’t think of checking the stores along the street, because he never thought BLY would go buy something himself, GH often turned his thoughts down irrational paths like BLY was kidnapped, without a glance into the stores.

So when BLY walked out, GH was already nowhere to be found.

The convenience store was still crowded, BLY assumed GH was still waiting to check out, so he stood outside waiting, meanwhile enjoying his candy. When GH came back, one tanghulu stick was over.

“Huh? Why are you coming from there?” BLY surprised.

GH was so hasty his lips got all purple, now seeing BLY casually eating candy to the point of having sugar glistened all around his lips, how could he not launch himself into a rage?

“You!!! Where were you gone to?” He howled.

BLY’s face got nervous, his cheery mood dampened a bit, “I bought a couple of candy sticks.”

He tried to give GH the remaining stick. GH didn’t take it, kept grilling, “You went to buy candies, why not give me a word? Do you know how worried I’ve been?”

BLY also started seething, “I did alert you, you didn’t hear yourself.”

“You stood in such a big noisy crowd, how could I hear you? Couldn’t you wait for me? Does eating just a little late kill you?”

BLY’s hand suddenly dropped, thud! Landed the tanghulu stick. “Eat whatever the richard simmons you’d like!” He angrily said and walked away.

GH pulled his coat back, BLY jerked out, GH kept yanking, BLY kept flipping out. Happily chitchatting one moment, now minutes later they were making a scene right on the street. BLY brutally planted a smash on GH’s face, people say while fighting each other just don’t hit in the face, GH fired up, kicked BLY directly in the butt.

Well then! This kick sent master Bai into deep rage, no words could be of any help now, his face burned into ashes, BLY stopped a cab and left.

GH stood awkwardly on the street, kept gritting his teeth. How old are you, why so childish? Just because of a candy stick, you fight me like this. Domestic harmony indeed can’t be built quickly in a day.

He looked at the tanghulu stick on the ground, started to feel really bad. So he bought another stick to bring home.

BLY arrived home first, in the bedroom tried to calm down, he didn’t care to tidy up, the groceries bought before laid scattered at the door. GH came back, there was no place to get his feet in.

GH first took care of the groceries, then stood at the bedroom door, holding the candy stick, and cleared his throat. BLY paid no attention, turned his back toward GH, head straight on his shoulders.

GH stepped in, put his hand on BLY’s shoulder, received a “richard simmons off” right away. GH brought the candy stick in front of BLY’s face, just to be thrown back.

“Really angry huh?”

BLY voice was cold, “You don’t deserve my anger.”

“Was it that bad? Wasn’t it just because of a candy stick? Besides, it was you who threw it on the ground, haven’t I bought it back for you now? If this is not enough, there are more.”

BLY fired up, “It’s not actually about the candy!”

“So what is this all about? Because I yelled at you? Think it through yourself, was it all because of you today? Normally it’s okay, but what is the situation right now? If you didn’t find me, would you worry?”

BLY deliberately said, “I wouldn’t.”

GH knew BLY was trying to make him mad, so he pointed to his cheek, accused, “Look, look how hard you hit me, it’s blackened already, who on earth would cause this to another human being? What am I to you for you to treat me this way?”

BLY’s intimidating eyes darted back, “Didn’t you also give me a kick?”

“What? I basically used no force!”

“Force or not, how could you know?”

“Look at you, is this not anger?” GH pinched BLY’s cheek and teased, “It really hurt? Let me see, let me see if I broke that butt.”

“richard simmons off!” BLY angrily shouted.

GH cheerfully took a bite from the tanghulu stick, exclaimed, “Not bad! The flavor is really nice, don’t you want to have some?” then brought it close to BLY’s mouth.

BLY didn’t care for his teasing.

GH pulled back, took another haw, and chirped, “Hmmm, so sweet, so crisp...”

BLY felt like standing beside him was a little child.

GH continued until there were two haws left, waving the stick in front of BLY’s face, solemnly asked, “Really don’t want? I’ll eat it all!”

“I mean what I said.” BLY was annoyed.

“Today however it takes, I must get you to eat!”

Keeping a haw between his teeth, GH kept BLY’s head in a grip, pushed toward BLY’s mouth. BLY kept turning left and right in vain, finally his lips caught a bit of sugar, he couldn’t help opening his mouth.

Half a haw along with the other tongue entered, sweetness filled his mouth, BLY chewed the fruit, intentionally bit on GH’s tongue. GH pulled his tongue back in pain, then little by little, carefully licked up the sugar on BLY’s lips.

[Cue the infamous Village chief Gu/Housewife Bai scene.]

 

I'm gonna do the role playing scene if I have time (has it been translated however?), but the candy fight leads to this passage in Vol.2, after they meet (and fight) again after 8 years:

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[BLY was at the army base after encountering GH and his "fiancé" while he was on a date himself.]

BLY was busy until 2 in the morning, he looked at his phone. It was Zao Jun (kitchen god) festival already. It had been a while since he couldn't sleep, he kept tossing and turning, his body ached and his mind couldn't loosen up.

His phone suddenly rang, by habit he thought it was emergency alert and sat up, but it was GH.

His heart skipped, but he picked it up.

"BLY, those eight years, have you ever missed me?"

BLY twisted the corner of his blanket, these words, maybe it was because the night was too quiet, so quiet he couldn't lie.

"I have."

The other side kept silence for a long time, then suddenly voiced, "I'm so regretful, eight years ago, just because of a candy stick I bickered with you. Had I known it was the last time you had tanghulu with me, I would have never scolded you like that."

...

 

 

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A little melancholia for the weekend, I can't believe it's been only 2 weeks...

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credit: who-jiho, AR H, I made the first gif

 

Every time I hear someone badmouth ZZ as being uncaring and cold-hearted (what) I'm gonna slap the first gif in their face. We all saw the other three tear up on stage, I wish just for once, ZZ, for you to be fragile enough to shed a tear under the spotlight, for someone to console you, for people to know how strong you actually are, holding it all by yourself and keep smiling.

Just a head tilt back and all your tears went back inside.

I'm getting so emoshunal  the second gif is just symbolic though, he might just be concentrating on his performance, but the way the light dimmed out and his face fell...  I remember seeing a short BTS clip that's the exact parallel, where he's all smiley when the camera's not running then someone yells "Action!" and his face frowns into BLY's stoic face (If you guys could find it, I'd be so thankful). Why does this cheery human sunshine keep breaking my heart???

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On 4/24/2016 at 9:01 PM, htuvecila said:

Ok so here is my short consolidation of ZZ and his friends for those who are curious.

Basically ZZ has 3 groups of friends that he still hangs out with, they have been constantly sending support and kinda shield him thru thick and thin.

Something I find interesting 

As strange as it could be, our "spoiled baby" ZZ who seems to need protection all the time is the actual leader in most of the groups he hangs out with. He was the president of his class in high school, one of the founders and leader of his band PROME (and another band called Eggache), the MVP of his LOL squad who is in charged of attacking, member in the organiser committee to host a rock concert in Shanghai, etc. AFAIK, ZZ also never addresses Shi ge as "ge" (Chinese word to call someone who is older than you), he calls him "Xiao Shi" - "Little Shi" instead. From their SNS interaction I personally fell they respect and are proud of ZZ, or like they joke, they do listen to ZZ's order lol.

About ZZ's support to his friends, I don't think I ever come up with another list like this again, it's quite painful lol. In short, it's 2-way affection. We just need to know ZZ deserves all the love coz he does the same for his friends. 

Thank you @htuvecila, it's way late but this is beautiful! OK so huge post to dissect this Xu Wei Zhou person ahead haha.

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You don't catch a glimpse of bossy!ZZ on camera a lot, he's formally trained to act so he can act this cute persona very convincingly. I'm not saying he's fake (lol no) it's just he's more than the typical 'idol' image in that he's NOT a push-over. A man can both like and behave like cute kittens but also strong-willed and assertive, he can be genuinely nice and ruthless at the same time, it doesn't mean he's insincere. He has been taking leader roles since high school so I'm sure whatever traits as an effective leader exist in him. I don't think he's actively trying to disrespect people older than him (like JY who is 2 years his senior), it's more like when they mutually agree to be friends then OK, I have this cute nickname for you. He lets everybody call him Zhou Zhou so perhaps he just doesn't care much about proper addressing lol, how much older should he get when he has to stop people from calling him ZZ? He may be bashful and naive in front of the camera, but actually is very shrewd irl. He has a million faces and one of those can scare the hell out of me. Look at this at 0:34 to see his gesture and facial expression before the camera rolls. What was that attitude for huh~ lol

On 4/24/2016 at 2:08 AM, stillwater said:

I am so glad ZZ has such supportive friends although it is interesting he's the leader of their different groups. But from the way he handles himself I can believe it. He also seems to have an amazing strength of character.

ZZ seems like such a interesting individual His friends are all different but share this bond and he's able to garner all this support says something about him as well. They are so loyal to one another.

Like water which can corrodes the strongest mountain, gentleness does not mean weakness. His friends and classmates respect him in lots of way, one of which is that they never gossip about him (unlike someone else who made a small scandal around JY), never upload images with his face even when hanging out (I think ZZ is also a private person in his own way, selfies, work-related photos and public appearance aside he doesn't let other people close to him publish his images. He doesn't talk much about his personal life, family and yes, even his friends). It is a two way street, no one needs to reciprocate someone who's a fake jerk. When you drop your idol persona to quietly watch your friends perform at the back of the auditorium, your friends will absolutely appreciate it and treat you back well.

On 4/24/2016 at 2:54 AM, charlie10 said:

Thank you @htuvecila for providing such in-depth info on ZZ's posse. I'm particularly intrigued by the he's-the-boss part. 

ZZ is often cast as the cute kitten (a part of him he plays up, I believe, because it works great as PR for him) who JY can just do what he wants with (not exactly, but you get my drift). I said in some other post that I think he's actually pretty stubborn and I have a feeling he really is the boss most of the time. He's super polite, super nice, but I don't think you can boss him around too easily. (Which makes his relationship with JY even more interesting. And in that respect it kind of mirrors the dynamic between BLY and GH, doesn't it? Maybe they've met each other's match in several ways...?)

ZZ is nice to those who are nice to him. JY is really gentle toward him (when there is no need) and they both tolerate, even adore each other's antics. He's nice to fans and friends because that's how he's brought up (by grandma Xu ). But the way he treats scandals and paparazzi shows that he wouldn't back down or keep silent, but he wouldn't get angry and throw tantrum either. He's mature with a hint of mischief. Well a lot of mischief actually and I'm sure we'll see a lot of that side of him, naughty!ZZ, not just this cutesy image, he's just too damn adorable it'd be a waste if he didn't play it up but I hope he knows how rare he is in this idol world mostly devoid of interesting personalities.

On 4/25/2016 at 8:14 AM, xix19xix said:

Based on your analysis, I kinda feel that ZZ is extremely good at becoming friends with anyone. Which kinda makes me feel that how he is with JY is just what he will do normally. In other words, he treats JY as just another good friend. 

He never calls JY "ge" either. Actually he doesn't call JY anything other than "HJY" or at most "JY". This is what I often think about, what if JY is just another good friend, albeit close, to ZZ? I have a friendly friend just like ZZ, equally nice and kind, attentive to everyone, there's no special treatment at all but it's very easy for one to misread that with something uniquely for him when there's no near comparison. With JY and his personality, when he lets someone into his smallest circle, to the point of declaring "I wouldn't do this and that with anyone else" that person would already be special, but ZZ is nice with almost everyone! and he has many close and good friends. It doesn't really matter much because I'm not a romantic shipper but I'd love a mutual special bond between only them. This is why I'm still bitter about all the bans, say, had they spent another month filming The Amazing Race, had a few more fashion shoots, taken a few more interviews and fanmeetings together, it would have helped their friendship (and US) tremendously. The whole thing moves so fast with so many events it's sometimes hard to think they've only known each other for 6 months by tomorrow.

14 hours ago, ryokise said:

> ZZ: *Read fans' comments* "Rest well" Okay,I will rest well when I have the time,*points to his dark circles* dark circles..
  A male staff: How long do you sleep recently?
  Xiao shi: 4..Not even 4 hours
  ZZ: You?
  Xiao shi: You
  ZZ: How could it be that you know my sleeping hours? Not even 4 hours..  
  Xiao shi: Through Your dark circles  
  ZZ: *Telling the other staffs* How could it be that he knows my sleeping hours?
  ZZ: You are the one who sleeps 4 hours,...I..you are quite funny.Sleep more alright? Xiao shi,Jiayou
  Xiao shi: Zhouzhou, you should eat more..
  ZZ: You should sleep more,eat more
  Xiao shi: I already..
  ZZ: And aspire to be the top of internet red (people who become famous online),Xiao shi who roars (Xiao shi's weibo name)

(ZZ's reaction to Xiao shi talking about his sleeping hours is quite defensive here, I think he is afraid that fans will be worried about him? It's around 3.59 in this link on bilibili TV , and despite ZZ being a little agitated here, Xiao shi is still patient with ZZ and even asked him to eat more lol)

> ZZ: *Reads fans' comments* Just exactly how long do I sleep?" Sleep..erm..I guess around 7 hours,normal sleeping hours.Anyway, I will sleep whenever there is a chance to.Grab the chance whenever there is time to sleep.No,I'm..for example now, I can sleep immediately.It's a skill that I learned recently.

This little snippet reinforces what CJD said about him, he gets very flustered and defensive when people poke him with something sensitive, he scolds people and rambles nonsense to bury it. Here he doesn't want people to know about his short sleep time and back then it's a way for him to cope with acting intimate scenes. ZZ, whatever, sleep more ah~ (JY has a defense mechanism too, it's his weird, direct, narcissistic sense of humor, he jokes a lot between swaths of his poker face, unlike ZZ who is cheery most of the time but doesn't make that many jokes - but it's another topic for another time.)

 

AND FINALLY OH GOD THE ALBUM TEASER 

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On 4/24/2016 at 0:57 PM, skeletonworks said:

 

Thanks for translating this... You're gonna make me bawl my eyes again with that last sentence... Yeah I really don't mind if they don't even have bed scenes in season 2... (just save them for the DVD ) . I just wanna see two boys caring for each other. That's already good enough for me....

And Guhai jumping from the 2nd floor is so over the top (how many times has he jumped from some floors to the ground? Is he some kind of super hero or something?). LOL. This novel is good but sometimes it's too far-fetched... LOL.

 

On 4/24/2016 at 4:29 PM, skeletonworks said:

 

I only remember a couple of times Guhai did something like this:

• When he went missing for two days, visited his mother's grave and came back with a large mooncake for Bai Luoyin.
• When he was sad/angry/shocked that Lulu "cheated" on him, he stopped the car and only went back when Bai Luoyin called him.

These words tugged on my heart so much I'm getting emotional all over again... That last sentence... reminds me of the "Walk Slowly" song... I need to stop torturing myself seriously...

Addicted isn't literature with an L haha. It's formulaic, and the way they fight and make up, overcome obstacles and have stretches of blissful domestic life (and lots of food), run away and come back... feels very methodical, down to the sex scenes, like CJD sat down one day and thought, hey, let me write every sex scene possible between these two men, from the mildest to the hardest, in that order lol. I may sit down one day too to write about how messed up Addicted actually is (and BL genre in general at depicting gay relationships) but there's too much drama and infighting between fans already SO here's something cheesy but sweet, sue me 

Fan art for a scene from the book with the series' production design:

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"From now on I won't leave, I won't ever leave".

credit: somikse

 

This scene is right before the homosexual rehab camp arc.

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[GH returned from the U.S. with GY. BLY had been staying with YQ, and GH, being GH, got jealous. They were fighting when GY came to their apartment, GH went with GY to eat out without making BLY anything to eat, so he was tortured by the fact that BLY had to eat instant noodles but he wouldn't come home (GH, childish much). But when he finally read BLY's message (6 hours late because he refused to check his phone) he rushed home.

The message, as GY found out, wasn't "I miss you" nor "I love you". It's "I'm hungry".]

BLY sat in front of the apartment's door, cigarette filters littered on the ground, he heard the elevator door open, his eyelids lifted and quickly dropped. In his hand there was still half a cigarette, he inhaled deeply, another filter was thrown on the floor.

GH hunched down to look at BLY, his face was gentle as if the bastard who threw a fit this afternoon wasn't him.

"Why don't you go in? Isn't it cold waiting here?"

He grabbed BLY's hands, cold as steel, his face promptly crushed.

"You've been waiting for me out here?"

That didn't have to be asked, just look at all the filters.

"I just saw your message," GH lifted BLY's chin up, "Had I read it earlier, I would've come back to cook for you, have you eaten yet?"

BLY didn't answer, he kept looking at GH. GH knew that he hadn't.

"Come, come inside, I'll make you something."

GH stood up, trying to pull BLY inside, but BLY wouldn't budge. His angry frozen heart thoroughly melted into a puddle right that moment. It was deep past midnight, and BLY kept waiting for him to come back, if he hadn't read the message, would BLY have stayed here through the night? 

He pulled BLY into his chest, feeling the coldness from head to toes.

"Can we go inside?" GH pleaded, "If from now on I have a tantrum, just hit me, however mad I get, I won't leave you home alone."

BLY's stiffened hand caressed GH's neck, a cold pain flowed through his veins into his heart.

"If you didn't come back, this apartment wouldn't mean anything anymore."

GH rubbed BLY's hair, his warm cheek pressed against BLY's cold face, his heart ached with every word.

"From now on I won't leave, I won't ever leave."

Only then BLY poured out his heart:

"You were gone for more than twenty days, the worst thing for me was sleeping alone, every time I felt there was no one beside me, I woke up. Truthfully I was so scared, I was so afraid that something would happen to you, so I dared not think, every day I closed my eyes, I told myself that you were already beside me. I drank because I was uneasy, I slept beside another person because I need a friend to fight my dread. Whoever this person actually is, it doesn't matter, as long as my eyes are closed, it's unquestionably you"

Hearing those words, GH felt bittersweet, moved and wounded.

"I should have called you more, not just that one long call without ever getting in touch afterwards. I was so into fulfilling my need without ever considering your feelings." [It was a PHONE SEX session while BLY was at school lol]

"Now you say those words, does it even matter?" BLY twisted GH's ear, "It's already bygone."

"Why yes it does matter." GH rubbed his scruff on BLY's lips, "At least for me to know how much I failed you."

"And then?" BLY's sharp eyes scanned GH's gentle pupils, "Knowing you failed me so next time we fight you'll richard simmons me to death?"

"No, not that, not like that... You richard simmons me, you richard simmons me up." GH shamelessly grinned to make peace.

"This is from your own mouth, next time you're being ridiculous, I'll pull your pants down straight!"

GH willingly nodded.

[They kissed and GH's dad, wanting to visit his son, walked out of the elevator and caught the whole thing lol]

 

Ah, I need to catch up with the thread.

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16 minutes ago, izziehudson said:

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Ah, is this the part where they competed with FW about how close they were?  Look how dorky ZZ is, they're just to darn adorable.

Here's a short chapter, 148 Vol.1, to show what a dork GH is in the kitchen and the way BLY quietly cares for him (that leads to the arc where detective BLY finds out about the truth of GH's mother, snippet here)

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[After many tragedies, including THAT scene. They made up, took turns to be on top lol and went to GH's family house. BLY found a photo of GH smiling in his mother's arms in his room. It was the only time he smiled on camera.]

On the way back to their apartment, GH asked, "What do you want to eat?"

BLY thought for a while without coming up with anything, simply said, "Whatever."

"How about noodles?"

BLY's face fell, his eyebrows twisted into a cross, "Can we change it up a bit? Since I moved in, nine out of ten days we have noodles."

GH tapped on the wheel, enthusiastically said, "This time it'll be different, we only boiled the already-made stuff before, this time I'll personally make and knead the dough."

BLY tearfully closed his eyes for a long time, "Can we just eat pre-made noodles?"

GH insisted, BLY didn't have the heart to attack his enthusiasm, had he known he would have made a definite answer, this is what I want to eat, to stop him on his evil path.

They arrived home right at lunch time, BLY smelled the meals from other people's homes, he really didn't want to stay at his.

GH eagerly got in the kitchen. BLY sat in the living room playing with his computer, loud noises coming out of the kitchen scared him wave after wave, how come waiting for a meal feels like a knife at his throat.

"Yin Zi!"

Hearing GH call, BLY ran over. The door is closed, he pushed in and got even more terrified. The sinks, the cutting boards, the stove, the dish racks... everywhere, they were all covered in white, on GH's clothes, shoes, neck, face... there's flour all over, yet nothing in the bowl.

"What'd you call me for?" BLY watched GH, flabbergasted.

GH waved his flour-covered hands, beamed: "I just want you to see, I'm done kneading!"

"..."

When BLY went to the kitchen again, GH had already started cooking, BLY looked at a strayed noodle on the countertop, he couldn't help but marvel. Albeit a bit rough and uneven, it looks like noodle, his eyes couldn't hide a little joy. Ah~ they're truly separate noodles! Not wet wad, not lumps, not even dry dough... Literally noodle!

BLY picked it up, it broke in two.

GH coolly lectured, "What are you doing? That's not the proper way to pick up noodles!"

"What is this 'proper' way are you talking about?" BLY snapped back, "I see Aunt Zhou picking them up all the time, in any way, they never break."

GH rolled his tiger eyes, "This amateur, in your untrained eyes, of course it doesn't seem obvious. Only professionals like I know the skill, see, this is how you pick them up."

As he was talking, GH carefully put a handful of noodles in the cooker, however, this end went in, the other still stayed in his hand, ultimately those less-than-20-cm noodles, they all broke.

GH couldn't contain his anger.

BLY patted his shoulder, "Just pretend I've never seen anything." then walked out.

GH yelled at him from behind, "You, come back! I did it wrong this time!"

Oh, the meals from downstairs smelled so good, BLY needed to close the windows quickly, or else he'd jump off the building.

Ten minutes passed, guessing everything was done, he knocked on the kitchen door, "Are you done?."

GH was coughing like a maniac in there, unable to hear the knocks.

BLY opened the door, thick smoke swirled out, GH driving on clouds, riding on winds, stood in front of the stove, a pan on one hand, a ladle on the other, fire burned underneath, his shirt seemed to already caught fire.

"What are you even trying to do?" BLY also coughed because of the smoke.

GH didn't seem to hear, bravely waved around the blackened pan.

Is that sauce? BLY looked around for the noodles, after half a day, finally found many little lumps, big and small, like fingers and nails. No doubt, these are the "noodles" made by the professional GH.

"I changed my mind!" GH looked at BLY in all his earnestness.

His face was ash black, even the eyebrows were scalded a bit.

"Didn't you say you're sick of noodles? Today we'll eat fried dough!"

"..."

At midnight, BLY woke up, saw GH sit on the bed, smoking. His cold cheekbones illuminated by the gloomy light, ashtray full of filters. BLY had no idea how long he had been sitting like that, he still remember sleeping at the same time; before going to bed, his face was still bright with impure thoughts.

Now, it all changed.

Sensing the stir beside him, GH put out the cigarette, turned his head toward BLY, "Awake?"

"You haven't slept?"

"No, I've just woken up."

BLY sat up, put out his hand, "Give me one."

"Don't, you won't sleep well."

BLY glared at GH, "Then why are you?"

"I'm addicted." [TITLE DROP BOOM SHAKALAKA]

BLY didn't care for GH, his upper half pressed on GH's body, stretched out to take the pack. GH took the chance to touch his butt, BLY didn't mind, lit up his cigarette, a faint vapor came out from his lips.

"What are you thinking?"

GH closed his eyes, the corner of his mouth twitched mischievously, "Tell me, why did the noodles break?"

BLY's eyes pierced GH, "All night for that?"

GH didn't say anything, the room fell in silence.

After a cigarette, BLY asked, "Are you missing your mother?"

The waves in GH's eyes stopped, like a quiet drop of water hanging in the air, suddenly froze into ice.

BLY put out the cigarette, blandly said, "I figure, when you're actually upset, you always endure it alone. After you're done, only then you come for me, pretend to get my pity."

GH froze.

BLY put his arm around GH, tried to pull him over, but GH's body stiffened, unmoved. Finally, BLY had to lean over, pressed a kiss on the thin lips, coldness crept into his mouth. He sat like that for a long time already. He hugged GH tightly, warmed GH up with his lips, until GH loosened up and hugged him back with all his body, only then BLY felt his trampled heart relieved. 

Dark room, they held each other close, naked.

After a long while, BLY ran his hand in GH's hair, being uncharacteristically affectionate.

"I don't know what to say to you, you know I'm not much with words."

GH smiled reluctantly, yet his eyes full of adoration, "Can't you try just this one time, say something nice for me?"

BLY asked seriously, "What do you want to hear?"

GH put on an act of thinking, said, "I want to hear you say, husband, you're awesome!"

BLY kneed him directly down there, GH growled, in a flashy way that makes the other be sure of his feelings.

"I'm here."

The moving hands on BLY's back stopped.

After a litte while, BLY repeated, "It's ok. I'm here."

His strong will collapsed, gratitude flooded GH deep inside, in this moment, nothing could compare with these words, nothing could ever pacified him like this. When his life fell into that abyss, he was hopeless, anguished, he suffered alone. And he had thought he could never get out of that depth of pain, forever had to gnaw on his wounds. Now with these words, the lock that hid away his painful memories had been broken, but even if he had to touch that darkest corner, now there was a pair of hands for him to hold.

He bit BLY's shoulder.

"Yin Zi, you're my entire happiness."

Every misery doesn't matter anymore, every sorrows fades away when you console me.

"I only have you."

BLY, shaken and ached with pain and passion, listened intently.

"Don't ever leave."

"Uh."

 

GH gets better at cooking, though. Very good indeed. Love conquers all.

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I don't like the melodramatic elements of the novel, but the funny parts make me tolerate it a bit, at times it's very ridiculous and hilarious. This is a scene in Vol.2 where they're playing hard to get.

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BLY and GH finally welcomed each other into their lives again, but they hadn't said anything concrete about their moving forward with the relationship yet. BLY came to GH's office to wait for him to go back to GH's home to eat lunch (what's with the many to's lol), but GH being GH made BLY change his mind.

Unexpectedly, BLY didn't get in the car but walked to a nearby restaurant, GH asked from behind, "What are you doing?"

"Trying this place's food for a change." BLY walked to the door.

GH calmly reminded, "There's nothing you like in this restaurant."

BLY turned around, the corner of his mouth hid a sly smile, "Your place has my favorite food, yes, but I can't eat there anymore. I can't get used to eating other people's meals just like that, you see, only a couple of days having lunch at your house and now I have to watch your mood to park in front of your office."

He entered the restaurant. GH gritted his teeth, BLY, how can you still provoke me like this?

So, GH also went in.

BLY was in the middle of ordering, seeing GH walk in, asked incredulously, "Hey, Director Gu, aren't your cooking excellent, why eating out?"

GH dropped a word, "Lazy."

BLY shouted, "Another table setting please!"

However GH didn't sit at BLY's table but the adjacent one.

Hatred filled BLY's inside, GH, good for you! You want to play hard ball? Two more days and I'll be back at the base, you won't be able to find anyone to annoy even if you want!

The waiter came to BLY, looked at him and then glanced at GH, asked quietly, "Is there more people?"

BLY hardened his face, "Put it over here, in front of me."

He then placed the food around in front of him, as though there's someone facing him.

And so, they sat at two separate tables, nonchalantly having their meals as if the other didn't exist, without a word. GH of course couldn't get used to the food, but he was already here, just as well tried to have a good appetite.

"Here, eat this, it's kinda delicious!"

From his side came BLY's voice, he dropped the chopsticks in his hands, took a peek over, and almost sprayed all the rice in his mouth out.

BLY ate by himself, with no one facing him, yet he put a lot of food in the other bowl, happily talking with the dishes and utensils. Like a mentally ill patient.

GH wanted to vomit blood.

"This fish, I've already picked out all the bones, didn't you use to pick fish bones for me? Today I'm gonna do it for you. Is it delicious? Really? Look how messy you are, your chin is eating your food, here, wipe..."

Cold air swirled around, two patrons left, the others looked at BLY, pity in their eyes:

"Oh God, that guy, he seems so nice, how come he becomes like this?"

"Definitely has been through a rough trauma."

"I'm sure his other half's gone."

GH choked on his rice, mixed feelings stormed inside.

Suddenly BLY asked another question, "Gu Hai, the food I got you, isn't it lovely?"

GH's face burned into black ash, BLY, I'll kill you, I'm not dead yet!

Even after being pushed into the car by GH, BLY couldn't stop laughing.

 

Separate tables, like at the Thai fan meeting *sighs*

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1 hour ago, charlie10 said:

I just wanted to go back to JY's face as he described how he felt when he first met ZZ:

Here's the first time they met:

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I don't know if anyone analyzed this snippet yet but it's my favorite interaction of them so I wanna take a shot.

OK so, here we have 2 guys meeting for the first time but look how their styles match from the get go  Both like to wear black, impeccable layering, left ear piercing, and typically clean haircut. Should there be awkwardness? Subtle comparison and competition? Should I greet him first or wait for a formal presentation?

ZZ, as we know now, a warm and friendly kid, he decided to break the ice. He initiated the greeting, asked first question, put out his hands, and his whole body pivoted towards JY, not just his face. But he was a bit taken aback by JY's cool facade, I'm already this tall and this guy is even taller~, so he stuttered, Huang, Huang Jing Yu. He might have thought, oh boy, this guy is too dispassionate ah~ how can I warm him up ah~ I'm supposed to be the cold hearted one ah~

JY, on the other hand, might have been taken aback too with how friendly and actively engaging ZZ was. He wasn't fond of making small talk, something that would be remedied later when he started to interact more with fans. But as of then, look at how his body tensed up, hands in pocket, and only his face turned towards ZZ, he hadn't opened up to this kid, yet. BUT LOOK, as he pulled away from the handshake, a smile crept on his face, and he kept his eyes on ZZ, maybe this kid is a-ok~ i'm not hating him at all~ he's kinda cute too ah~

From then on, they treat each other as equal, ZZ never calls JY "ge ge", only his full name although ZZ's 2 years younger, something that could be considered disrespectful in Asian societies, but JY isn't someone who minds those little things. Unlike, say, with Feng Song, who calls them both "ge ge", and quite looks up to JY, and JY treats him like a little brother. JY doesn't think of ZZ as his little brother, their little in-jokes (many times they don't have to speak out, just glance at each other and laugh) seem to be between childhood close friends, not newly-met guys 2 years apart; hey, you can't stay in the same bed for a month and keep being bros. ZZ was still shy throughout filming (in-character much) but he kept JY entertained lol. The cool facade was stripped away, and the silly, caring JY emerged.

Say what you will about CJD, she literally dug up gold with the two of them.

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34 minutes ago, charlie10 said:

I love that bit about the photoshoot! That rings true to me, I can see JY being a little detached (for whatever reason, I'm not sure shyness is right for him, reserved is better), not easily connecting to others, while ZZ is super polite and attentive to everyone. He'd definitely want to include JY, if he can. 

I guess filming Addicted made them extremely comfortable with each other physically (disregarding all delulu-theories for a moment). They have no boundaries anymore, they know each other so well. They really were like a couple, living together. Imagine moving in with someone you never met, sleeping in the same bed. I'm still not over how drastic that is. Such an arrangement would either lead to hate or love, I say. And they don't hate each other, so...  

I'm sorry I wasn't clear, it wasn't the photoshoot with Figaro, it was the Excellence Awards sponsored by Figaro, where they took a photo with Gaspard Ulliel (I literally screamed). There's the video where ZZ was all giddy and JY had his cool face on lol. They were seated together at a table (oh those were the days) and a guest working in business who happened to be a fan came and talked a bit. JY at first was reversed, yes, but eventually opened up because ZZ in the middle didn't leave him out of the conversation. They didn't know many people there (big stars, business guests) so they talked to each other. At one point, JY said he hadn't decided whether to take a role, and ZZ asked "Oh that, not yet?" like they'd talked about it before.

I'm pretty skeptical of fan accounts and rumors (like the rumor ZZ cried backstage at Thai FM) without photos or videos but this one I believe, it's very detailed and specific.

Actually that stretch of time was when they were around each other a lot, it was events/photoshoots/interviews non stop with both. I think they're a bit attracted to each other, not in a sexual way but probably more than platonic, like no I won't richard simmons you but I'll hold you and sleep if you ask no homo haha. Professionally speaking, arranging them to sleep on the same bed isn't necessary and from a Western view it even violates HR codes lol; but it worked out, oh how too well it worked out. Oh and ZZ was the one who suggested they slept together (I might misread this part, it was in only one interview and never mentioned again).

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Watching the Happy Camps fancams and gifs is fun AND heartbreaking at the same time. They're just too adorable and pure.

I don't sense the blatant fanservice from them unlike a few other "couples". They're just exceptionally comfortable around each other, and in JY case, he used to put up his guard against strangers so ZZ was usually his only attention at events and shows. I've read a detailed fan account for the Madame Figaro French/Chinese event, and without cameras in their faces, they were still very close and ZZ was the friendlier one, trying to hook JY into conversations with others, making him laugh and talk more comfortably.

Their intentional acts of holding hands etc. therefore aren't as endearing (not that I don't squeal at them) as a glance here, a subconscious smile there; or when one teases and the other gets shy, or the way they care for each other and seem to have their own body signals even without the "couple" label tagged on. They just enjoy each other's company and we enjoy them together. Why not, both of them are good-looking, and they're like kids fooling around in their own world most of the time. It's our childhood, youth and innocence we project on them.

I think that's why the ban hurts even more, they became martyrs for LGBT rights/artistic freedom against homophobic oppression and censorship, and I think it's unfair. They're not even LGBT activists nor making any political statement, when they met and acted last year, it was just a job, and they found a great friend in each other, and they playfully went along with the flow, being open-minded. But China is currently being on a censoring rampage, if even Apple and big stars have fallen under censorship, how can they, newbies and all, fight it? They may find independent successes, yes, the ban may be lifted, yes, they may meet again irl or even wishfully on stage, yes; but the scars are already cut, grown men stop being feely-touchy, sweet smiles become awkward handshakes, and even the closest friends drift apart; how much time left for these 20-something guys to be this close and this happy together?

It's devastating to accept that they may never interact like this again.

Sorry for bringing down the mood, I thought I wanted to see the 2 shows they filmed together as they are the last moments of them in unbridled joy, but now I don't think I can.

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1 hour ago, sixte said:

For a first post, you did very strong and high ! You perfectly replace things where they are, with a good dose of this relative rationale I cure myself to endure the pain.

You forgot ZZ's particular skill at knitting. And all great actors do not know knitting properly (here, Cary Grant) :
 

 

Ah  Aren't his personal and social skills another topic? Knitting, cooking, self-styling... the skills that are, in Asian societies, largely deemed to be essential for women to know but looked down on when boys try to learn. It's very sexist and still a prevalent view that only girls should know those skills to prepare for their families. And another proof that ZZ is very well educated with modern values. Such a good kid.

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@Ariodante @IMOmusings It's way back when they could still shooting magazine editorials together, Zhou said "Stop stealing a look at me." iirc. There is NO photos of them caught together in Thailand except for the 2-second moment and the ones with all 4 onstage.

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It's a shame that Addicted won't ever have season 2, here I mean the rest of vol.1 not vol.2. I find vol.2 way too fictional and over-dramatic to my taste.

But aside from THAT controversial scene there are a lot of scenes I want to watch with JY and ZZ on screen, in the characters they brought to us. IDK if those has been translated, but I'll post a few so bear with me haha.

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[BLY on a quest to find out the truth about the death of GH's mother, and he had been abused and mistreated to the point of breaking because of cold and hunger. He called GH.]

In the night, GH's voice sounded so warm.

"Why not already sleeping this late?"

BLY's hands shook more violently, "I'm a bit cold, talk to me."

In GH's voice there was a deep pain, "Are you stupid? If you're cold then put more blankets on, what else! Talk to me, how tf could it make you warm? Go take a blanket out of the closet, hurry up, don't be lazy!"

BLY smiled achingly, "Nope, just want to talk to you."

"Are you missing me, little baobei?"

A cold wind suddenly blew past, BLY hurried to bury his neck into his coat, still it froze him out of breath. This kind of cold, directly passing through covers, bleaching deep inside, devoured the last shred of will from BLY. He felt dizzy, in his heart he kept warning himself, you absolutely cannot pass out now, if so they will throw you out, and you can never walk back in.

"Why don't you speak?"

BLY clenched his teeth, listening to the breathing from the other side, and finally felt warmer inside.

"Da Hai, hold me this one time."

"...Good Yin Zi, I'm holding you close, sleep now."

...

 

 

I love this arc because there's not many situations to show how deeply BLY cares for GH in season 1, apart from allowing GH to keep eating and sleeping like it's his home lol.

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[BLY was excited to show GH the proof about his mother's death, and GH being GH, hurt BLY's feelings again by screaming at him.

GH calmed down, then looked through the documents. He came to understand everything, he finally forgive his father and let go of his pettiness towards BLY's mother. He came into his mother's old room, reflected and prayed:

"Mom, I don't ask for anything else, if you love me, please watch upon me and Yin Zi for us to walk unto the end of the road." *i literally cried at this part*

BLY was exhausted and taken to the hospital]

On his way, in GH's head an image kept playing, BLY, so excited he grabbed your arms, declared his achievement through those 2 days, he had never been like that, never been so disarrayed... Right that moment, he absolutely want you to hug him, to say some support, if only to spare him an appreciative look, it wouldn't have made him so distressed to turn around and leave, only a disappointing and lonely backside.

At the hospital, he ran to BLY's room, there was only Aunt Zhou waiting.

"Da Hai, why are you here?"

"Where's Yin Zi?"

She pointed into the room, "He's asleep."

GH quietly pushed the door, BLY was laid on the bed, his face so pale and body so gray unlike a lively man. He sat beside the bed, his heart pained unbearably. This was how you saw him yesterday, this is how he came to find you! Why didn't you realize? Why did you not care and scream at him? Why all did you think about is rage and anger, never just a little bit compassion?

"Yin Zi." GH softly called.

BLY heard his voice, opened his eyes a bit, then quickly close them. He couldn't speak, and he didn't want to.

GH sat silently, then left with his gloomy face.

Aunt Zhou saw him stand in the corridor, suddenly thought of something and asked:

"Da Hai, was it Yin Zi made you mad, and you locked him outside?"

GH was taken aback, his eyes unfocused, then looked at her face, "Why do you say that?"

"Er... Yesterday that kid was back and got a fever, then he deliriously spoke about someone didn't let him get in to sleep, someone made him face the cold outside. I thought, he lived with you for the last 2 days, so... Well, I'm just guessing haphazardly, if it's not true, please don't take offense."

His fingers on the cigarette were suddenly petrified.

"I'm a bit cold, talk to me."

"Da Hai, hold me this one time."

Aunt Zhou watched GH jump directly from the second floor to the ground, she was terrified, what does this kid want to do? When she was still shaken, GH was already out of the hospital.

[Then he went on a murdering rampant lol]

 

 

In a world where it was possible, I'd keep the sex scenes to the minimum and just let them bickering at each other, wrestling, fooling around and leave the camera running. That'd be my season 2.

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About Zhou's musical ability, please don't forget that he knows a lot more than this generic C-Pop balladeer image may lead you to believe. He has put a considerable time to hone his many skills even though music is just a "hobby" (his main passion is still acting, and he's still in drama school through all this). Zhou has been exposed many kinds of music from Latin to traditional theater and he's been through experimental phases with metal and rock (as he said "I was able to reign myself back before I went to far") so these songs are simply another experiment to him, even this mysterious rap song which, I suspect, I'm gonna hate.

I think he's still trying to figure out what he should do, the mini album is just an accidental project thrown in along the way. He's a smart person and he's in it for the long haul so I bet he's listening to feedback (he knows fans mock his selfie skill lol and is quite self-depreciating about it) and taking time to better himself. So what if his voice is not distinctive enough, it requires a lot more to succeed than just a voice, and vocal techniques can be improved upon. I'm more interested in how he would use his skills and influences going forward. First off, his stage presence is OFF THE CHART, he knows how to work the audience not just by words, in almost all his appearance he's just radiant on stage, confident, smiley, emotive and very professional. He knows music, not just sing it, plays guitar and bass (and piano too iirc) that's a big plus compared to being a plain "singer", he's classically trained in stage performance in a prestigious academy, that's another plus, he can absolutely dance, that's another BIG plus if he ever moves on from ballads, and he's willing to try new things. The most important plus is that he can write his own songs, by request (iirc both By the Sea and Walk Slowly were written in a very short time, perhaps only a few days) or for himself, it elevates him from singer to musician. And finally, not to mention his appreciation towards fans because annoyingly cocky idols have fans too, well, he has his look. Even if the songs suck, a multi-talented and relatable (and handsome) performer can always make lots of fans.

You don't need to be exceptional to be special, look at Addicted, it's plagued with amateurish artistic values, but it's a once in a lifetime little precious thing that you couldn't make even with all the money and best talents in the world.

I'm not overestimating his potential here though, after all, he's still very inexperienced in the real showbiz world. But people can learn, esp. smart and hard-working people.

He's actually one of the most fascinating individual I've ever encountered this far in the idol world. Unlike others I judge on their works - like even if they have a bad personality but the songs are good, I'm still listening or they're nice irl but their acting sucks, then I'm not watching - this is the first time I actually literally don't care about one's acting or singing though haha, just a fan of him, as a person, so there won't be any disappointment coming from me.