[Chinese Webseries 2016] Heroin Web Series 上癮网络剧

[savekaya]

Here's the translate as requested! @hailouyin17 

Summary:

Spoiler

 

How the idea to elope started when GH’s dad saw GH and BLY kissing at the doorstep one night when he came for a visit. Thus he brought the two kids back to his training camp site and kept them at two separate blocks. There wasn’t much constrains, just that the two cannot see each other. GH’s dad tried to force his sexual orientation back to liking females by inviting strip girls and other female related performance but didn’t help at all. Missing BLY too much, GH came up with a plan which was to invite a bunch of his party animals over to his block, and the guards allowed since they thought he was just having fun. But GH actually got these people to dig a secret tunnel underground to link both blocks so that he can find BLY, which succeeded.

 

Then one night, GH’s dad talked to his subordinate on the issue on his two sons, and thought that its better to just let the two go and let their relationship die down on its own. Once they were released, this is also when BLY decides to open up to his father, who accepted it for being the benevolent dad he is. 

 

While back at the camp site, a soldier discovered the secret tunnel and informed the subordinate(BLY was staying in that apartment with him during the captured period), who then reported to GH’s dad. Knowing that the two had secretly met up those nights, GH's dad checked the surveillance camera in the subordinate’s apartment and to his horror saw their intimacy. So he called a meeting which consisted of the parents of both parties. But BLY’s dad just told him to let nature take its course.

 

Thus GH’s dad took action once again and took GH back to the campsite and forces him to enter the army. However, Gh refuses to follow suit and was kicked into the tunnel and forced to stay in there. BLY knew that GH was captured back to the campsite went to find him and told GH that neither of them are going to give up. So GH suffered in the tunnel while BLY suffered in the cold outside the campsite. This stayed on for 3 days till BLY’s dad came over and told BLY to elope with GH. Thus BLY went to find GY to get GH out. (In the story GH and GY looks 90% alike. The process was pretty funny GY wants BLY to sleep with him in exchange to help GH but BLY refuses and stayed in the room acting psychotic and fainted which pissed GY off so bad he agreed to it but actually he would have agreed regardless he just wanted to make things difficult for BLY.) So GY staged it in such a way that what seems like GH attacked him and wore GY’s attire to smuggle out while GY’s was forced in the tunnel and stayed for 3 days, which gave the couple time to escape.

 

So they first headed off to QingDao because BLY wants to reside at some area near the sea. (This is the stop where the filming of the MV) At this point only GY and BLY’s dad know their whereabouts. And at the dialogue part of the MV, actually what GH and BLY shouted was not the full dialogue. Here’s the full one:

 

GH: My name is Gu Hai, male, 18, from Beijing! The person sitting next to me is my wife(by right daughter in-law like how parents call them), we officially fell in love on this exact day last year, and it has lasted for a year! Although it's not a smooth ride, we will push on! *Turns to BLY* Are you daring enough? 

BLY: What's there to fear? My name is BLY, male, 18, from Beijing. From xxx High School Class 27, am a delinquent kid. Beside me is my wife and he wouldn't stop pestering me! Out of sympathy towards this lunatic, I’ve decided to marry him. However his dad doesn't agree and our marriage has yet to reach an agreement. But I will stay true and sincere to my wife, even if his illness acts up, I will not leave him! 

GH: *laughs* GWT! (GH's dad) Let me tell you, I do not care if you agree to this marriage or not! No one will be able to change my mind on the person who I've decided on! And don't even think about breaking my relationship!

BLY: GWT!..... I fked your son! *Laughs*

Together: Setbacks will not wear off our determination! Difficulties will not stop us from moving on! Our angers are on the common enemy! Our determination will stand strong!

 

Then at night, both of them stayed over at the beach in the tentage to catch the sunrise. BLY gave his dad a call to check up on him. Then some night activities. (You get what I mean) The next morning they caught the sunrise and took a photo which resembles the Buddha cuz of the bright lighting behind and this photo stayed with GH ever since then, even after the 8 years apart as his computer background. Then because Gu Hai saved a drowning bride, when the both of them saw the media coming towards them wanting to interview them for the heroic act, they run off and headed towards their next destination.

 

 

 

NOTE: This is only like 1/3 of the outline(I think). I still have quite some to go because I wanna try to write it as clear as possible since I'm not able to translate the book line by line. I'll update again later! 

[aeislaeigh]

Credit:  Oasis绿洲_许魏洲个站

[ririsasy]

3 hours ago, elppa said:

 

Cr:  Heroin Addiction [ไห่ลั่วอิน]

Reaction of Zhouzhou and JingYu for Question: What is your ideal type of lover? 

Never getting old question. The Updated version  of their answers pleased my delulu heart  No need spoken words, right? They were truly happy to hear another's name. Fans spoke on behalf of their hearts 

Zhou: That's understanding.. 

Fans: *Screaming* JingYu , Jing Yu

Zhou: *shy* *smiling happily*.. speechless

JingYu: ...

Fans:  *Screaming* Zhouzhou, Zhouzhou

JingYu:  *smiling happily*..speechless

 

Remind me of JunJae  Zhouzhou seems to be shy just like Jae Joong while being asked about his ideal lover and fans answered the questions for him - Junho. Jae Joong was shy and smiled happily, too. Oh, I miss them

Lol. I thought I am the only one who see the similarity between YunJae couple and YuZhou . 

1. Jingyu has a small face compare with his wide posture just like Yunho.

2. Jaejoong is freaking adorable even though his body all thick muscle he can appear so sweet just like our Zhouzhou 

3. Both couple can not keep their hands to themselves when they were around each other.

4. The special smiles that only appear from both couple when they are with one another.

5.Yun know Martia art like self defense kind of martial art (hapkido?) and our Jingyu is Juijitsu master with blue belt.

6. Jae is a singer, a composer The same with our Precious Zhou zhou 

7. They both can not be seen with each other (This is the cruel part that also the same wtf)

8. They like to show hint to their fans with wearing matching clothes, accessories . Etc.

9. YUZHOU in kore can YUJOU (because I think they didn't have Z letter.) so basically their innitial Both couple name can be written as YJ.

10. BOTH HAVE MASSIVE CHEMISTRY WHEN THE STAND NEAR EACH OTHERS. 

11. When they got invited to the variety show. They will play hard with the other but gentle toward one onether (We have happy camp for Yuzhou comparison and I only remember X something game show for yunjae. Gosh they are my old ship)

 

Sorry for my long rambling. Ignore it if you didn't agree. Lol. Just my opinion.

(Because These two couples just like magical ships for me. To good to be true. )

[hailouyin17]

Wow! That was quick @savekaya! Thank you so much for the first part of your summary. I feel happy that BLY's dad was so supportive of them. And oh my God! Anthony Song who played BLY's dad just posted something about the ban as posted by @estreline in IG. And that eloping thing! I did not expect that it was Old Bai suggesting it. Gu Yang's character is so complex. 

[aeislaeigh]

Credit:  skfq_

[hailouyin17]

4 minutes ago, aeislaeigh said:

Credit:  skfq_

 Sorry for reposting the pictures but I feel sad for the other guy. Sorry  

[atze1091]

1 minute ago, hailouyin17 said:

 Sorry for reposting the pictures but I feel sad for the other guy. Sorry  

 

Is the other guy staring at zz's crotch lol

[Soohee ssi]

Introducing the touchy touchy couple that not care about the third wheel *drum playing* YUZHOU!!! LMAO I kinda feel for Wei Long because of the left out, but he's so cute tho, it's okay at least you are cutie HAHAHA

But ZZ and JY though why so touchy touchy??It's not that I'm complaining 

[hailouyin17]

9 minutes ago, atze1091 said:

 

Is the other guy staring at zz's crotch lol

Hahahaha. Cause ZZ's undies is showing :)) 

[gayyoxx]

2 hours ago, thoron said:

@gayyoxx nice.. your getting famous dude.. by being the talented scribe to the fandom's many unexpressed fantasies, you are carving yourself a well-deserved name in ADDICTED History.. proud of you!

Wow. For the first time since weeks I could leave soompi for hours (well, I had to) and returned with this?  

thanks for the ideas for colour names, @thoron. I am at the point of using anything colour-sounded LOL.

 

[Soohee ssi]

So much ZZ today...woah..I need vitamin ZZ lots after all the bad things happen so yeah

[hailouyin17]

2 minutes ago, Soohee ssi said:

 

So much ZZ today...woah..I need vitamin ZZ lots after all the bad things happen so yeah

 

I am missing JY also. Any update on him? Did he sign with an agency already? If not, he's really alone. As I type this, his sad face and teary eyes came flashing back at me. 

[mama0731]

52 minutes ago, savekaya said:

Here's the translate as requested! @hailouyin17

 Summary: How the idea to elope started when GH’s dad saw GH and BLY kissing at the doorstep one night when he came for a visit. Thus he brought the two kids back to his training camp site and kept them at two separate blocks. There wasn’t much constrains, just that the two cannot see each other. GH’s dad tried to force his sexual orientation back to liking females by inviting strip girls and other female related performance but didn’t help at all. Missing BLY too much, GH came up with a plan which was to invite a bunch of his party animals over to his block, and the guards allowed since they thought he was just having fun. But GH actually got these people to dig a secret tunnel underground to link both blocks so that he can find BLY, which succeeded.

 

Then one night, GH’s dad talked to his subordinate on the issue on his two sons, and thought that its better to just let the two go and let their relationship die down on its own. Once they were released, this is also when BLY decides to open up to his father, who accepted it for being the benevolent dad he is. 

 

While back at the camp site, a soldier discovered the secret tunnel and informed the subordinate(BLY was staying in that apartment with him during the captured period), who then reported to GH’s dad. Knowing that the two had secretly met up those nights, GH's dad checked the surveillance camera in the subordinate’s apartment and to his horror saw their intimacy. So he called a meeting which consisted of the parents of both parties. But BLY’s dad just told him to let nature take its course.

 

Thus GH’s dad took action once again and took GH back to the campsite and forces him to enter the army. However, Gh refuses to follow suit and was kicked into the tunnel and forced to stay in there. BLY knew that GH was captured back to the campsite went to find him and told GH that neither of them are going to give up. So GH suffered in the tunnel while BLY suffered in the cold outside the campsite. This stayed on for 3 days till BLY’s dad came over and told BLY to elope with GH. Thus BLY went to find GY to get GH out. (In the story GH and GY looks 90% alike. The process was pretty funny GY wants BLY to sleep with him in exchange to help GH but BLY refuses and stayed in the room acting psychotic and fainted which pissed GY off so bad he agreed to it but actually he would have agreed regardless he just wanted to make things difficult for BLY.) So GY staged it in such a way that what seems like GH attacked him and wore GY’s attire to smuggle out while GY’s was forced in the tunnel and stayed for 3 days, which gave the couple time to escape.

 

So they first headed off to QingDao because BLY wants to reside at some area near the sea. (This is the stop where the filming of the MV) At this point only GY and BLY’s dad know their whereabouts. And at the dialogue part of the MV, actually what GH and BLY shouted was not the full dialogue. Here’s the full one:

 

GH: My name is Gu Hai, male, 18, from Beijing! The person sitting next to me is my wife(by right daughter in-law like how parents call them), we officially fell in love on this exact day last year, and it has lasted for a year! Although it's not a smooth ride, we will push on! *Turns to BLY* Are you daring enough? 

BLY: What's there to fear? My name is BLY, male, 18, from Beijing. From xxx High School Class 27, am a delinquent kid. Beside me is my wife and he wouldn't stop pestering me! Out of sympathy towards this lunatic, I’ve decided to marry him. However his dad doesn't agree and our marriage has yet to reach an agreement. But I will stay true and sincere to my wife, even if his illness acts up, I will not leave him! 

GH: *laughs* GWT! (GH's dad) Let me tell you, I do not care if you agree to this marriage or not! No one will be able to change my mind on the person who I've decided on! And don't even think about breaking my relationship!

BLY: GWT!..... I fked your son! *Laughs*

Together: Setbacks will not wear off our determination! Difficulties will not stop us from moving on! Our angers are on the common enemy! Our determination will stand strong!

 

Then at night, both of them stayed over at the beach in the tentage to catch the sunrise. BLY gave his dad a call to check up on him. Then some night activities. (You get what I mean) The next morning they caught the sunrise and took a photo which resembles the Buddha cuz of the bright lighting behind and this photo stayed with GH ever since then, even after the 8 years apart as his computer background. Then because Gu Hai saved a drowning bride, when the both of them saw the media coming towards them wanting to interview them for the heroic act, they run off and headed towards their next destination.

 

NOTE: This is only like 1/3 of the outline(I think). I still have quite some to go because I wanna try to write it as clear as possible since I'm not able to translate the book line by line. I'll update again later! 

Thanks so much for the translation. Please translate more....! 

 

Cookie for u..

[jaenzhou2u]

Let me add to @ririsay

12) jae is liken to cat like zz

13)jae can cook while zz can knit (n that consider in asian country as women skill)

14)jae loves animal so is zz

15)jae loves rock although he can sing pop so is zz

16)jae is dork n have many funny faces so is zz

17)jae end up with 2 teamates like zz end up with fs and cw

18)jae love to drive in sportcar n zz loves to drive (the sportcar will come later i guess)

19)jae can be rebellious n stuborn (remember when he fought yunho n dont want to back away until junsu cried), i belive zz is rebellious n stuborn too with his photo 'this is beginning' n his refusal to cry during fan meeting...

20) jae loves black n white n gray attire (although) he look good in anything so is zz

21)jae according to his teamates the one who is the most caring, just like zz when a fan gives him banner to remind him abt jy kindness he smiled n took pic with it

22)jae mostly loved by japanese n thailand n now zz is invited to japan... wow...

23)beautiful face n skin, jae marked his body with tatoos so did zz

24)jae taught yh to sing new songs (since yunho's skill is dancing, although he can sing too) like how zz taught jy to sing

25)jae has lot of skincare (his skin is fair n smooth and the envy of female pipulation but easily burned) n we saw zz wore mask before sleeping in the same bed with jy

Just for fun...

[aeislaeigh]

Credit:  聂赫留_朵夫

 

[Soohee ssi]

So the actor that play Bai Luoyin father update his weibo showed that his protest about the ban. I like him as an actor, I love him more when he's trying to be a real dad to 'Haiyin' outside the webseries and protect them. Go uncle go!!

[Guest skeletonworks]

This is a super long post. About my experience attending my 1st fanmeeting ever.

 

 

 

I don't even know where to begin. I am still overwhelmed with emotion after I went through the clips that I recorded... them watching the fanvid/support project video particularly.

First of all, I would like to thank @JTanis for helping me bought the FM tickets. I could have not gone to this FM without your help. She also helped me a lot by updating me about the FM. I'm sorry that we could only met for a short while. I regretted this a lot. I wanted to properly meet you and took pictures with you at the big Shangyin's wall outside the hall but because of the time constraint, I could not. I also felt sorry for her because she had to leave early around 7 pm because she had a flight to catch and she missed Johnny's appearance on stage, could not do the hi-touch and take group pictures. I feel you about this whole thing. I hope you'll be strong!

Thailand is super hot. I couldn't stand it even though I'm from Malaysia. Maybe in Malaysia I don't spend so much time outside during this time of draught/lack of rain.

I went to BKK with my friend, who's a Chinese, who's also a Shangyin's fan so we planned the itinerary trip not just for the FM, but for visiting BKK as well. If it were up to me, I'd just be stalking the places where the four of them were at but no, I couldn't do that to my friend. Besides my mum through out my entire trip, keep texting me to send her photos of BKK  I didn't tell her I was going to a FM. Otherwise she'd have not let me go!

Anyway, after visiting the Chatuchak market, we were all sweaty and went to BCC Hall at Central Plaza Ladprao around 1.30 pm. I was stunned seeing so many fans!!! I was embarrassed as well *_* I saw fanboys wearing shirts with "Shangyin" on it, some fans painted/stamped their faces with "Jingyu❤", head band with Johnny & Zhouzhou face (like Mickey Mouse headband or something), cosplaying the Shangyin's uniforms, a lot of people making money with merchandises using Johnny, Zhouzhou, DaShu & Fengwen's photos >_< (they even dared to include Song Joongki amidst the Shangyin's merchandises! >_<;;). There's no official merchandise from the Shangyin's franchise though T_T

I collected my tickets & Shangyin's posters. Then when it came to register for hi-touch (only one of us won the hi-touch), my friend discouraged me. She didn't want to do it so I said I'd do it. At that time I was "high"/too excited or something... She was worried for me as well. I'm worried too but I told her I'd wear a facemask (and I ended up wearing a face mask the entire FM >_<). Even though @JTanis repeatedly told me that there's nothing to worry about, I was still paranoid. I won't divulge the reasons for this though.

Then we went back to our hostel to get our stuffs (gifts for YuZhou and made my friend wrote the card for Johnny). Here's the thing. I regretted doing everything last minute. I bought their gifts on last Friday after work. I wrote a fan letter to Johnny on Sunday morning and asked my friend to translate it for me so that I can copied it to the card. The problem is she handwritten it >_< and I had a hard time copying it!!!! So in the end, after got back to our hostel, I begged her to write it on the card instead. As for Zhouzhou, I wrote in English >_< I hope he understands! See my ugly Chinese handwriting. It's incomprehensible!!!! Sorry no pic for Johnny's card because at that time she was still writing it and we were rushing because it's already 4 pm. We took an Uber and reached there around 4:30 pm >_<

Here's my 2nd regret. I regretted that I didn't check the schedule of giving gifts properly T_____T You can drop your gifts from 1pm - 4pm and when I asked the staff there where should I put the gifts, she said it's already closed!!!!! I was devastated and begged her to give them to Johnny & Zhouzhou... She told me she couldn't guarantee whether they will get them or not... There goes everything down the drain because of my carelessness... TT_______TT The most important things are not the gifts but the FANLETTERSSSS!!!!! At that time, I can already felt some kind of bad omen looming....

See that long queue (is that even a queue???!). Everyone is queueing up to enter the hall. Super long queue. I regretted that I didn't come earlier! The lines are confusing! There's only signs at the front of the hall but the queue was super long and no one controlling the lines... When I asked the person in front of me & showed her my tickets, she simply shrugged me off.. And I'm like  okaaaay.. Maybe she didn't understand me or what but I could already feel the language barrier here.

Before getting in the lines, I noticed there were several Johnny's banners outside the hall (there was none when I went to collect the tickets). I thought it was setup by Johnny's team. Later I found out from Vivy (Johnny's manager) that it was setup by Johnny's fansites. So I thanked all the fansites who spent the money and effort to setup these posters to support Johnny! I was excited when I saw a Men's Uno's banner as I took the escalator to the venue! They really tried hard to promote Johnny. There were Johnny's social media's infos (instagram link, weibo link etc) at the bottom of the poster. Such dedication! Truly proud! My friend asked me why I didn't pose like hugging him or touching him  lol I took a few pics with other posters as well but seriously it was too crowded >_>

(paranoia  )

It was already 10 past 5pm when I got into the venue... They checked the bag before going in.. Inside my bag, I brought camera (totally forgot to remove it from my bag), binoculars, Johnny's plate but they didn't catch me lol. But I didn't use my camera anyway... Because when we got to our seat, it wasn't as far as we thought it was! The view is quite clear and they were three big screens. I didn't even use my binoculars  or the zoom lens that I bought for iPhone....

The FM hasn't started yet and I need to go see @JTanis because she's giving me back the balance of the money that I transferred to her. Because she had to leave early so it'd be difficult if we met later.. Her sit was at A1 section, 2nd row (lucky her!) while mine is at C2. As I was about to get to her, the national anthem was played. Although I didn't understand at first, but I saw everyone stood up and other people who were walking stopped and stood straight. I also stopped midway ^^;; When it was over, I quickly rushed to her and she handed me the money and the lights went off. It was dark and the MC came out and everyone was screaming. I felt sorry that I had to went in between the rows to get to my seats. While I was rushing, I could feel the butterflies in my stomach flying frantically like I couldn't believe this is happening!!!!

I got to my seats just in time. The screen showed the Shangyin's cast one by one and my face... literally fell when they stopped at the 3rd one. No Johnny. My chest felt tight at that time. I brushed whatever mixed feelings that I had away when I saw the three of them coming to the stage and fans were screaming crazily. Literally screaming my heart out when Zhouzhou came up to the stage..

The next segment was Zhouzhou singing "Dust". At this time, I was still clinging to that 1% hope that the four of them will play with the fans together. I even thought that Johnny probably came late but then I quickly dismissed the thought immediately because I saw fanphotos of him arriving at the venue... Then in the next segment of playing with fans, still no sign of Johnny, my heart beginning to break little by little... 

I couldn't remember when was this. I need to rewatch the fancams. I didn't record this part. Only bits of when Zhouzhou started singing. I think it was before Zhouzhou singing "Dust". Edit: This was before Zhouzhou performed a rock song... The MC created a suspenseful atmosphere and everyone was chanting #YuZhou.. In that pitch black hall, I saw two silhouettes and everyone is going crazy and chanting #YuZhou including me! When the light was switched on again, my friend told me there was like a 1-2 seconds silence in the hall.. I didn't really notice it because maybe I was too shock... I think everyone else was also stunned when they realised the 2nd silhoutte wasn't Johnny but their translator. And is it just me or Zhouzhou's face fell a bit... Like he felt like he had disappointed fans... T_T

TBH, my friend and I believe that Zhouzhou wasn't very pleased or satisfied with what's going on. I actually noticed it during the first segment. Yes he's smiling but it's not "his usual" smile. It's a smile he put up when he tried to hide his real feelings or when he's angry (remember that BTS when Johnny annoyed him when they were choosing the arrangement of the song?). My friend said he looked like he spaced out... Maybe we imagined too much... And when he ate that Bai Luoyin's doll... Even though he smiled, I think he's just angry at the whole separation thing because it's ridiculous. My friend said she heard Johnny said jokingly "why are you so cruel?" in a soft voice when Zhouzhou ate that doll... I felt like he could sense that Zhouzhou is not happy and he ate that doll to show his dissatisfaction... Like "stupid restrictions so why are these Shangyin's cake here?! I'll just eat it since you all don't like me and Johnny to stand next to each other. Why should #HaiYin dolls be allowed to stand next to each other?" that's what's probably going on in his mind...

I love Johnny's first segment "Remember Your Eyes". At first when "Remember Your Eyes" popped up in the screen I was like why is Zhouzhou's IRYE song randomly popped up in the screen???! But actually it was related to the staring game Johnny would be playing with fans ^^;; However, I like the subtle hints of #YuZhou that the EO has organised... Another subtle #YuZhou hints are Johnny and Zhouzhou wearing matching sleeveless black shirts and matching earrings. Right now I feel like anything related to #YuZhou must be subtle and cannot be too obvious. It's too risky. I pity them for having to go through this and my heart breaks because of this... So I feel like neither agency (CJD/Johnny's teams) wants this to happen but if they don't do this, I don't know what's gonna happen to their future careers...

When Johnny finally came up to the stage, I felt like that was the loudest cheer ever!! My heart felt like it's gonna popped out from being too excited! Johnny did a cover of Jonathan Lee's "飘洋过海来看你" (I Crossed Over The Ocean And Sea To See You". I asked my friend what song he sang and googled translation of it. It was such a heartbreaking song. So fitting to the FM...

http://www.chinesetolearn.com/%E6%9D%8E%E5%AE%97%E7%9B%9B-jonathan-lee-piao-yang-guo-hai-lai-kan-ni-i-crossed-over-the-ocean-and-sea-to-see-you-lyrics-pinyin-and-english-translation/

The lyrics OMG... hits me right in the FEELS department!!!!!!!! Tell me if I'm wrong. But I cannot help but relate this to our #YuZhou situation. How he crossed the sea (go to Bangkok) just to meet him (because most of the time, they don't get to see each other). The lyrics goes on to say "we even comforted each other no matter what ending we have to face" and "how I wished I could be with you all my life". I can't... I have noticed this a lot about Johnny. He would never be obvious but he tried to convey it discreetly. This has happened a lot of time. Coincidence? I think not. After finished singing the song, I saw him got teared up  He's such a sentimental person. 

From these I conclude that Johnny, if there was no banning or whatever ridiculous thing that's trying to separate them, he'd never leave Shangyin. I don't think he minds being associated with Shangyin, LGBT or whatever but if these could jeopardise his career AND Zhouzhou's career, I think it's better this way... My friend told me that in Amei's concert, she invited a few transexuals to sing in her concert and Johnny singing "I Only Care About You" and posting on Weibo that "I'm serious when singing the song", I feel like a confession from him.... Amei is a big supporter of LGBT... So the fact that Johnny accepted this invitation means BIG. Other than spreading his fanbase, it means he's not scared to be associated with LGBT or whatever especially during this critical time...

Johnny, Chenwen & Zhouzhou made an effort to speak in English <3 I love Johnny's English and I still cannot with Zhouzhou's "I love my love" antic XDDDDDD So cute! When the MC asked what he thought of Thailand and he said "HOT" and started to take off his coat, everyone was literally screaming including me!!!!!

When the three of them came to the stage and the first thing I noticed was Zhouzhou wearing the black sleeveless top just like Johnny. My feels!!!! I was screaming so loudly!!! I thanked DaShu for making ways for Zhouzhou to stand besides Johnny. He made that 1-2 seconds of #YuZhou moment priceless!!! If not for him, there would be NO YUZHOU moment at all during the FM!!!!!!!!!! My friends said the fans now were sorry that they misunderstood DaShu. When he said "I hope bro Zhouzhou & bro Johnny will get better", I think he knows and he's being sincere about it. He's like Youqi in the novel... He can sense it #delulu I also thanked the MC for pretending not to notice that Johnny and Zhouzhou were standing next to each other. He's a great MC. Even though I didn't understand Thai at all (I only could understand "narak", "jub jub" and "pom"), he made it so fun!

Then came the fanvid/VTR/support project video... My feels... I was tearing up... Johnny sang along to the "Hai Ruo You Yin" song at the beginning. What gets me is the fans were singing along to the song too. I was singing along too from whatever lyrics that I remembered. I can feel the love for #Shangyin, for the actors in the hall. There's so much love and someone is trying to ruin it. I can't take it... When that song ends and all the fans were chanting "YuZhou" including me... My feels at that time... And the next song started.... I don't know what the song was but it sounds so sad  My eyes were watery at this time.. So much emotion... Seeing DaShu controlling his tears... I just can't... I could feel like this is like an ending... (little did I know at that time..). The fans were singing to this song and I was like how did they know how to sing this song? This is not #YuZhou or #HaiYin song... Towards the end of a song, all of them raised up a paper. On the paper it was written "Forever Support #Addiction1stFanmeetingInBKK" and behind was instruction but it was written in Thai, how am I supposed to understand  I didn't know we're supposed to held this paper towards the end of the song >_> I was frantically searching for it only to realise that I sat on top of it lol. But I held it up just in time when they turned around to see a sea of fans holding this paper up as a sign of support T_____T I was teary, imagined them seeing so much love and support from their fans and know that this would be the END.

This song is called "等待着你" (Waiting For You) and the info I got from google is that this song is an OST for Hormones (a Thai teen series) but how come it's in Chinese version? :-/ If anyone can translate this song, it'd be great.

Anyway, forgot to mention this... At the very beginning of the fanvid, they showed clips of Johnny and Johnny was screaming like fanboys ROFL (love his sense of humour!) then when Zhouzhou clips came up, Zhouzhou copied him  #YuZhou moment  I also noticed that Chenwen was being closed to DaShu and he put his arms on his shoulder, then that guy (the same guy who pulled Zhouzhou away), went up to Chenwen and pulled him away from DaShu... then that guy said something to the MC (probably asking him to watch out their positions >_>)

Well, after the fanvids end, my feeling is a mess... I'm grateful that I could attend this FM but at the same time I felt "exhausted" and dejected... I suddenly told my friend I didn't want to do the hi-touch... which is my biggest regret ever. What was I thinking?! I think I wasn't thinking straight at that time.. Because I was too overwhelmed with emotions... They announced that those who had the green bands should stay for hi-touch & group photo session. The staff went to check whether we had a green wristband or not. I showed him mine and my friend who didn't have was asked to leave the hall. As my friend started to leave, I was like hesitating a lot... My friend gave me the final word, "if you didn't want to do it, you can just come out with me" and so I left...... I thought that okay in the next FM, I'd definitely not miss this chance. Little did I know that this would be the last FM of Shangyin. When I knew about this at the airport, I regretted the decision I made terribly... I think if I were with someone who's more encouraging and a bit more supportive, I'd definitely do it. But my friend is totally against me doing the hi-touch.. My friend is rather a passive one  She didn't even shout, or chant during the FM at all. LOL. I'm like are you enjoying the FM or not... >_<

Sorry that I disappoint you guys. Sorry that I didn't hi-touch with them and couldn't let you guys know how Johnny's or Zhouzhou's hands feels like TT______TT Sorry that my gifts and fanletters about us Soompier might not get to Johnny/Zhouzhou because of my recklessness.  

After leaving the hall, I took some pictures at the huge Shangyin's posters outside (the same poster that we got but a bigger version). Then we went to the airport. We waited and waited. No sign of any of them or the fans.. Around 10pm, I saw some fans gather near one of the entrance. We just followed them when they moved to another entrance ^^;; Then we heard a scream, and everyone was literally running towards that scream. I'm quite old (even though some said I look young ) already and I'm running around in the airport... So embarrassing. LOL. As you can see from the airport fancams, the Thai fans are pretty tame and they don't crowd the actors... 

Then I read they were having supper at Waterside restaurant... but @JTanis told me that Johnny will be leaving tonight and I knew Johnny's flight was at 1 am so we waited. I felt bad for my friend actually. Because she's not as excited as me but she said let's wait until 1 am.. If they don't come, then we leave... When we got back to our hostel, around 2 am or so, Johnny arrived at the airport TT________TT I felt like crying because there would be no chance of seeing him anymore... Because this is the last FM... If it were up to me, I'd have waited until Johnny came but because I don't want to let my friend keeps on waiting..... 

I have never been so invested in ANY thing before that I even go as far as to attend their FM... When I heard that Shangyin is officially over, my heart breaks into millions pieces... When I watched the Walk Slowly MV at the airport, I was teary and tried to control myself from crying... They looked genuinely happy in the MV and the thoughts of not being able to see them anymore as Guhai and Bai Luoyin, I still cannot digest it up til now...

My friend asked me whether I'd continue following this fandom. I told her I'm not too sure myself. I said as for now, I'm unable to quit them..... After we left the venue, she told me she's not happy. She said that if she was not in the FM, she wouldn't have felt the impact so much. I felt the same way too and I felt guilty that I dragged her to the FM... I didn't even know that this would be a farewell meeting. And CJD chose this day to drop the bomb (the end of Shangyin) as well as candy (the MV). It was a very emotional day. We were at the airport and no one was feeling hungry. We were too dispirited to even eat dinner/supper. We ate "lunch" which was Thai snacks really (those sweet mango with sticky rice thingy) around 4 pm before going to the FM. The next morning we didn't even have breakfast before heading out to visit the Grand Palace.. More than 12 hours not eating.. LOL. I find it funny that my stomach wasn't hungry at all... On top of that, the day before that (Saturday) was my friend's birthday. I told her before going to the FM, this is gonna be your birthday present. After that FM, she said she would remember this birthday present for the rest of her life...lol..

The next morning was very depressing. I went to the loo and sat there and started getting teary every time I remembered the painful reality.. After showering, I sat on my bed and started sobbing... Even today, when I watched the MV, I started bawling again... Sightseeing in BKK the next day was not very exciting as I was still hurt from the ending of Shangyin and on top of that, the weather was not helping at all. It was sultry. I was quiet most of the time and didn't have the mood to talk.. Every time I thought about all the bad things that has happened to the boys within a span of 3 months, and the banning, the end of Shangyin, I feel like choking....

What Chai Jidan wrote about how she regretted not filming the car accident scene and implying that some scenes were shot, I think the scenes that were shot were the eloped scene for the MV. The season 1 of Shangyin ended around ch 100++ and the car accident happened at the end of volume 1. I don't think the remaining 100+ chapters can fit the 3 extra episodes which was originally intended for an 18 episodes web series.

My friends and I discussed about this.. What if CJD persuade the boys to secretly film this, at least until that car accident then only release it when everything has die down (8 years later maybe?)... At least it'd be possible for them to act as the adult Guhai & Bai Luoyin 8 years later...maybe... 

Here's a video that I took of the fanvid. I focused on the big screen which showed their face and reactions as they watched the fanvid on the stage screen. It was cut in the middle (and continued with the remaining of the video) because I can hear my voice as I was searching frantically for that piece of paper lol. I watched the stage screen while recording the other screen that showed their faces. Whenever fans wrote JingyuxZhouzhou, YuZhou, me and other fans screamed so loud!!! T_T My heart goes towards little DaShu for having it hard the most... 

 

Sorry for this blog-alike post... This is the only place where I can pour my feelings...

 

[woodencoaster]

12 hours ago, ximichem said:

Saw this pic and the song 人海中遇见你 (Seeing you in the crowd) popped up in my head *^* oml I have a feeling that somebody will make a FMV with this song omg I'll be dead

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Cr on pic

link of the song and lyrics

 

omg I'll be more dead to a FMV with song Those Years omg just knowing the lyrics  too well I cannotttt

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好想再回到那些年的時光

Hǎo xiǎng zài huí dào nàxiē nián de shíguāng
Really wanna go back to those years [when we are still young]

回到教室座位前後 故意討妳溫柔的罵

Huí dào jiàoshì zuòwèi qiánhòu gùyì tǎo ni wēnróu de mà
Going back to the classroom when I am sitting in front of you 
Purposely teasing you to get your gentle scolding

and...

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 那些年錯過的大雨

 Nàxiē nián cuòguò de dàyǔ
All the heavy rain that we missed those years

 那些年錯過的愛情

Nàxiē nián cuòguò de àiqíng
 All the romance that we missed those years

好想擁抱妳 擁抱錯過的勇氣

Hǎo xiǎng yǒngbào ni yǒngbào cuòguò de yǒngqì
 Really want to hold you tightly in my arms
 To hold on the courage that I never managed to express

  曾經想征服全世界

 Céngjīng xiǎng zhēngfú quán shìjiè
 I used to dream about conquering the world

到最後回首才發現

  Dào zuìhòu huíshǒu cái fāxiàn
 Only realize that in the end

 這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

 Zhè shìjiè dī dī diǎn diǎn quánbù dōu shì ni
 Every little thing in my world revolves around you only

 

 那些年錯過的大雨

 Nàxiē nián cuòguò de dàyǔ
All the heavy rain that we missed those years  

那些年錯過的愛情

 Nàxiē nián cuòguò de àiqíng
All the romance that we missed those years

 好想告訴妳 告訴妳我沒有忘記

 Hǎo xiǎng gàosu ni gàosu ni wǒ méiyǒu wàngjì
Really want to tell you that, to tell you that I have never really forgotten

 那天晚上滿天星星

Nèitiān wǎnshàng mǎn tiān xīngxīng
The night sky filled with the twinkling stars

平行時空下的約定

  Píngxíng shíkōng xià de yuēdìng
[and] the promise we made in a parallel universe

再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳

Zài yīcì xiāng yù wǒ huì jǐn jǐn bàozhe ni 
If we can meet again, I will hold you tightly in my arms this time

 緊緊抱著妳

Jǐn jǐn bàozhe ni 
Hugging you tightly...

totally know how you feel! i keep listening to emo songs and thinking about dear yuzhoufengwen.. 

especially 天高地厚.. the lyrics remind me of what they're going through now

天高地厚 and lyrics

 

[dramacrayz]

1 hour ago, Scandani said:

This gem need to be shared.

Aww don't be so obvious guys. Nah, am kidding, go on. 

thank you @elppa

OMG their smiles are so sheepish!!!!! Gosh. There must be something behind those smiles!!! Right right????

[hailouyin17]

15 minutes ago, skeletonworks said:

This is a super long post. About my experience attending my 1st fanmeeting ever.

 

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I don't even know where to begin. I am still overwhelmed with emotion after I went through the clips that I recorded... them watching the fanvid/support project video particularly.

First of all, I would like to thank @JTanis for helping me bought the FM tickets. I could have not gone to this FM without your help. She also helped me a lot by updating me about the FM. I'm sorry that we could only met for a short while. I regretted this a lot. I wanted to properly meet you and took pictures with you at the big Shangyin's wall outside the hall but because of the time constraint, I could not. I also felt sorry for her because she had to leave early around 7 pm because she had a flight to catch and she missed Johnny's appearance on stage, could not do the hi-touch and take group pictures. I feel you about this whole thing. I hope you'll be strong!

Thailand is super hot. I couldn't stand it even though I'm from Malaysia. Maybe in Malaysia I don't spend so much time outside during this time of draught/lack of rain.

I went to BKK with my friend, who's a Chinese, who's also a Shangyin's fan so we planned the itinerary trip not just for the FM, but for visiting BKK as well. If it were up to me, I'd just be stalking the places where the four of them were at but no, I couldn't do that to my friend. Besides my mum through out my entire trip, keep texting me to send her photos of BKK  I didn't tell her I was going to a FM. Otherwise she'd have not let me go!

Anyway, after visiting the Chatuchak market, we were all sweaty and went to BCC Hall at Central Plaza Ladprao around 1.30 pm. I was stunned seeing so many fans!!! I was embarrassed as well *_* I saw fanboys wearing shirts with "Shangyin" on it, some fans painted/stamped their faces with "Jingyu❤", head band with Johnny & Zhouzhou face (like Mickey Mouse headband or something), cosplaying the Shangyin's uniforms, a lot of people making money with merchandises using Johnny, Zhouzhou, DaShu & Fengwen's photos >_< (they even dared to include Song Joongki amidst the Shangyin's merchandises! >_<;;). There's no official merchandise from the Shangyin's franchise though T_T

I collected my tickets & Shangyin's posters. Then when it came to register for hi-touch (only one of us won the hi-touch), my friend discouraged me. She didn't want to do it so I said I'd do it. At that time I was "high"/too excited or something... She was worried for me as well. I'm worried too but I told her I'd wear a facemask (and I ended up wearing a face mask the entire FM >_<). Even though @JTanis repeatedly told me that there's nothing to worry about, I was still paranoid. I won't divulge the reasons for this though.

Then we went back to our hostel to get our stuffs (gifts for YuZhou and made my friend wrote the card for Johnny). Here's the thing. I regretted doing everything last minute. I bought their gifts on last Friday after work. I wrote a fan letter to Johnny on Sunday morning and asked my friend to translate it for me so that I can copied it to the card. The problem is she handwritten it >_< and I had a hard time copying it!!!! So in the end, after got back to our hostel, I begged her to write it on the card instead. As for Zhouzhou, I wrote in English >_< I hope he understands! See my ugly Chinese handwriting. It's incomprehensible!!!! Sorry no pic for Johnny's card because at that time she was still writing it and we were rushing because it's already 4 pm. We took an Uber and reached there around 4:30 pm >_<

Here's my 2nd regret. I regretted that I didn't check the schedule of giving gifts properly T_____T You can drop your gifts from 1pm - 4pm and when I asked the staff there where should I put the gifts, she said it's already closed!!!!! I was devastated and begged her to give them to Johnny & Zhouzhou... She told me she couldn't guarantee whether they will get them or not... There goes everything down the drain because of my carelessness... TT_______TT The most important things are not the gifts but the FANLETTERSSSS!!!!! At that time, I can already felt some kind of bad omen looming....

See that long queue (is that even a queue???!). Everyone is queueing up to enter the hall. Super long queue. I regretted that I didn't come earlier! The lines are confusing! There's only signs at the front of the hall but the queue was super long and no one controlling the lines... When I asked the person in front of me & showed her my tickets, she simply shrugged me off.. And I'm like  okaaaay.. Maybe she didn't understand me or what but I could already feel the language barrier here.

Before getting in the lines, I noticed there were several Johnny's banners outside the hall (there was none when I went to collect the tickets). I thought it was setup by Johnny's team. Later I found out from Vivy (Johnny's manager) that it was setup by Johnny's fansites. So I thanked all the fansites who spent the money and effort to setup these posters to support Johnny! I was excited when I saw a Men's Uno's banner as I took the escalator to the venue! They really tried hard to promote Johnny. There were Johnny's social media's infos (instagram link, weibo link etc) at the bottom of the poster. Such dedication! Truly proud! My friend asked me why I didn't pose like hugging him or touching him  lol I took a few pics with other posters as well but seriously it was too crowded >_>

(paranoia  )

It was already 10 past 5pm when I got into the venue... They checked the bag before going in.. Inside my bag, I brought camera (totally forgot to remove it from my bag), binoculars, Johnny's plate but they didn't catch me lol. But I didn't use my camera anyway... Because when we got to our seat, it wasn't as far as we thought it was! The view is quite clear and they were three big screens. I didn't even use my binoculars  or the zoom lens that I bought for iPhone....

The FM hasn't started yet and I need to go see @JTanis because she's giving me back the balance of the money that I transferred to her. Because she had to leave early so it'd be difficult if we met later.. Her sit was at A1 section, 2nd row (lucky her!) while mine is at C2. As I was about to get to her, the national anthem was played. Although I didn't understand at first, but I saw everyone stood up and other people who were walking stopped and stood straight. I also stopped midway ^^;; When it was over, I quickly rushed to her and she handed me the money and the lights went off. It was dark and the MC came out and everyone was screaming. I felt sorry that I had to went in between the rows to get to my seats. While I was rushing, I could feel the butterflies in my stomach flying frantically like I couldn't believe this is happening!!!!

I got to my seats just in time. The screen showed the Shangyin's cast one by one and my face... literally fell when they stopped at the 3rd one. No Johnny. My chest felt tight at that time. I brushed whatever mixed feelings that I had away when I saw the three of them coming to the stage and fans were screaming crazily. Literally screaming my heart out when Zhouzhou came up to the stage..

The next segment was Zhouzhou singing "Dust". At this time, I was still clinging to that 1% hope that the four of them will play with the fans together. I even thought that Johnny probably came late but then I quickly dismissed the thought immediately because I saw fanphotos of him arriving at the venue... Then in the next segment of playing with fans, still no sign of Johnny, my heart beginning to break little by little... 

I couldn't remember when was this. I need to rewatch the fancams. I didn't record this part. Only bits of when Zhouzhou started singing. I think it was before Zhouzhou singing "Dust". The MC created a suspenseful atmosphere and everyone was chanting #YuZhou.. In that pitch black hall, I saw two silhouettes and everyone is going crazy and chanting #YuZhou including me! When the light was switched on again, my friend told me there was like a 1-2 seconds silence in the hall.. I didn't really notice it because maybe I was too shock... I think everyone else was also stunned. And is it just me or Zhouzhou's face fell a bit... Like he felt like he had disappointed fans... T_T

TBH, my friends and I believe that Zhouzhou wasn't very pleased or satisfied with what's going on. I actually noticed it during the first segment. Yes he's smiling but it's not "his usual" smile. It's a smile he put up when he tried to hide his real feelings or when he's angry (remember that BTS when Johnny annoyed him when they were choosing the arrangement of the song?). My friend said he looked like he spaced out... Maybe we imagined too much... And when he ate that Bai Luoyin's doll... Even though he smiled, I think he's just angry at the whole separation thing because it's ridiculous. My friend said she heard Johnny said jokingly "why are you so cruel?" in a soft voice when Zhouzhou ate that doll... I felt like he could sense that Zhouzhou is not happy and he ate that doll to show his dissatisfaction... Like "stupid restrictions so why are these Shangyin's cake here?! I'll just eat it since you all don't like me and Johnny to stand next to each other. Why should #HaiYin dolls be allowed to stand next to each other?" that's what's probably going on in his mind...

I love Johnny's first segment "Remember Your Eyes". At first when "Remember Your Eyes" popped up in the screen I was like why is Zhouzhou's IRYE song randomly popped up in the screen???! But actually it was related to the staring game Johnny would be playing with fans ^^;; However, I like the subtle hints of #YuZhou that the EO has organised... Another subtle #YuZhou hints are Johnny and Zhouzhou wearing matching sleeveless black shirts and matching earrings. Right now I feel like anything related to #YuZhou must be subtle and cannot be too obvious. It's too risky. I pity them for having to go through this and my heart breaks because of this... So I feel like neither agency (CJD/Johnny's teams) wants this to happen but if they don't do this, I don't know what's gonna happen to their future careers...

When Johnny finally came up to the stage, I felt like that was the loudest cheer ever!! My heart felt like it's gonna popped out from being too excited! Johnny did a cover of Jonathan Lee's "飘洋过海来看你" (I Crossed Over The Ocean And Sea To See You". I asked my friend what song he sang and googled translation of it. It was such a heartbreaking song. So fitting to the FM...

http://www.chinesetolearn.com/%E6%9D%8E%E5%AE%97%E7%9B%9B-jonathan-lee-piao-yang-guo-hai-lai-kan-ni-i-crossed-over-the-ocean-and-sea-to-see-you-lyrics-pinyin-and-english-translation/

The lyrics OMG... hits me right in the FEELS department!!!!!!!! Tell me if I'm wrong. But I cannot help but relate this to our #YuZhou situation. How he crossed the sea (go to Bangkok) just to meet him (because most of the time, they don't get to see each other). The lyrics goes on to say "we even comforted each other no matter what ending we have to face" and "how I wished I could be with you all my life". I can't... I have noticed this a lot about Johnny. He would never be obvious but he tried to convey it discreetly. This has happened a lot of time. Coincidence? I think not. After finished singing the song, I saw him got teared up  He's such a sentimental person. 

From these I conclude that Johnny, if there was no banning or whatever ridiculous thing that's trying to separate them, he'd never leave Shangyin. I don't think he minds being associated with Shangyin, LGBT or whatever but if these could jeopardise his career AND Zhouzhou's career, I think it's better this way... My friend told me that in Amei's concert, she invited a few transexuals to sing in her concert and Johnny singing "I Only Care About You" and posting on Weibo that "I'm serious when singing the song", I feel like a confession from him.... Amei is a big supporter of LGBT... So the fact that Johnny accepted this invitation means BIG. Other than spreading his fanbase, it means he's not scared to be associated with LGBT or whatever especially during this critical time...

Johnny, Chenwen & Zhouzhou made an effort to speak in English <3 I love Johnny's English and I still cannot with Zhouzhou's "I love my love" antic XDDDDDD So cute! When the MC asked what he thought of Thailand and he said "HOT" and started to take off his coat, everyone was literally screaming including me!!!!!

When the three of them came to the stage and the first thing I noticed was Zhouzhou wearing the black sleeveless top just like Johnny. My feels!!!! I was screaming so loudly!!! I thanked DaShu for making ways for Zhouzhou to stand besides Johnny. He made that 1-2 seconds of #YuZhou moment priceless!!! If not for him, there would be NO YUZHOU moment at all during the FM!!!!!!!!!! My friends said the fans now were sorry that they misunderstood DaShu. When he said "I hope bro Zhouzhou & bro Johnny will get better", I think he knows and he's being sincere about it. He's like Youqi in the novel... He can sense it #delulu

Then came the fanvid/VTR/support project video... My feels... I was tearing up... Johnny sang along to the "Hai Ruo You Yin" song at the beginning. What gets me is the fans were singing along to the song too. I was singing along too from whatever lyrics that I remembered. I can feel the love for #Shangyin, for the actors in the hall. There's so much love and someone is trying to ruin it. I can't take it... When that song ends and all the fans were chanting "YuZhou" including me... My feels at that time... And the next song started.... I don't know what the song was but it sounds so sad  My eyes were watery at this time.. So much emotion... Seeing DaShu controlling his tears... I just can't... I could feel like this is like an ending... (little did I know at that time..). The fans were singing to this song and I was like how did they know how to sing this song? This is not #YuZhou or #HaiYin song... Towards the end of a song, all of them raised up a paper. On the paper it was written "Forever Support #Addiction1stFanmeetingInBKK" and behind was instruction but it was written in Thai, how am I supposed to understand  I didn't know we're supposed to held this paper towards the end of the song >_> I was frantically searching for it only to realise that I sat on top of it lol. But I held it up just in time when they turned around to see a sea of fans holding this paper up as a sign of support T_____T I was teary, imagined them seeing so much love and support from their fans and know that this would be the END.

This song is called "等待着你" (Waiting For You) and the info I got from google is that this song is an OST for Hormones (a Thai teen series) but how come it's in Chinese version? :-/ If anyone can translate this song, it'd be great.

Anyway, forgot to mention this... At the very beginning of the fanvid, they showed clips of Johnny and Johnny was screaming like fanboys ROFL (love his sense of humour!) then when Zhouzhou clips came up, Zhouzhou copied him  #YuZhou moment  I also noticed that Chenwen was being closed to DaShu and he put his arms on his shoulder, then that guy (the same guy who pulled Zhouzhou away), went up to Chenwen and pulled him away from DaShu... then that guy said something to the MC (probably asking him to watch out their positions >_>)

Well, after the fanvids end, my feeling is a mess... I'm grateful that I could attend this FM but at the same time I felt "exhausted" and dejected... I suddenly told my friend I didn't want to do the hi-touch... which is my biggest regret ever. What was I thinking?! I think I wasn't thinking straight at that time.. Because I was too overwhelmed with emotions... They announced that those who had the green bands should stay for hi-touch & group photo session. The staff went to check whether we had a green wristband or not. I showed him mine and my friend who didn't have was asked to leave the hall. As my friend started to leave, I was like hesitating a lot... My friend gave me the final word, "if you didn't want to do it, you can just come out with me" and so I left...... I thought that okay in the next FM, I'd definitely not miss this chance. Little did I know that this would be the last FM of Shangyin. When I knew about this at the airport, I regretted the decision I made terribly... I think if I were with someone who's more encouraging and a bit more supportive, I'd definitely do it. But my friend is totally against me doing the hi-touch.. My friend is rather a passive one  She didn't even shout, or chant during the FM at all. LOL. I'm like are you enjoying the FM or not... >_<

Sorry that I disappoint you guys. Sorry that I didn't hi-touch with them and couldn't let you guys know how Johnny's or Zhouzhou's hands feels like TT______TT Sorry that my gifts and fanletters about us Soompier might not get to Johnny/Zhouzhou because of my recklessness.  

After leaving the hall, I took some pictures at the huge Shangyin's posters outside (the same poster that we got but a bigger version). Then we went to the airport. We waited and waited. No sign of any of them or the fans.. Around 10pm, I saw some fans gather near one of the entrance. We just followed them when they moved to another entrance ^^;; Then we heard a scream, and everyone was literally running towards that scream. I'm quite old (even though some said I look young ) already and I'm running around in the airport... So embarrassing. LOL. As you can see from the airport fancams, the Thai fans are pretty tame and they don't crowd the actors... 

Then I read they were having supper at Waterside restaurant... but @JTanis told me that Johnny will be leaving tonight and I knew Johnny's flight was at 1 am so we waited. I felt bad for my friend actually. Because she's not as excited as me but she said let's wait until 1 am.. If they don't come, then we leave... When we got back to our hostel, around 2 am or so, Johnny arrived at the airport TT________TT I felt like crying because there would be no chance of seeing him anymore... Because this is the last FM... If it were up to me, I'd have waited until Johnny came but because I don't want to let my friend keeps on waiting..... 

I have never been so invested in ANY thing before that I even go as far as to attend their FM... When I heard that Shangyin is officially over, my heart breaks into millions pieces... When I watched the Walk Slowly MV at the airport, I was teary and tried to control myself from crying... They looked genuinely happy in the MV and the thoughts of not being able to see them anymore as Guhai and Bai Luoyin, I still cannot digest it up til now...

My friend asked me whether I'd continue following this fandom. I told her I'm not too sure myself. I said as for now, I'm unable to quit them..... After we left the venue, she told me she's not happy. She said that if she was not in the FM, she wouldn't have felt the impact so much. I felt the same way too and I felt guilty that I dragged her to the FM... I didn't even know that this would be a farewell meeting. And CJD chose this day to drop the bomb (the end of Shangyin) as well as candy (the MV). It was a very emotional day. We were at the airport and no one was feeling hungry. We were too dispirited to even eat dinner/supper. We ate "lunch" which was Thai snacks really (those sweet mango with sticky rice thingy) around 4 pm before going to the FM. The next morning we didn't even have breakfast before heading out to visit the Grand Palace.. More than 12 hours not eating.. LOL. I find it funny that my stomach wasn't hungry at all... On top of that, the day before that (Saturday) was my friend's birthday. I told her before going to the FM, this is gonna be your birthday present. After that FM, she said she would remember this birthday present for the rest of her life...lol..

The next morning was very depressing. I went to the loo and sat there and started getting teary every time I remembered the painful reality.. After showering, I sat on my bed and started sobbing... Even today, when I watched the MV, I started bawling again... Sightseeing in BKK the next day was not very exciting as I was still hurt from the ending of Shangyin and on top of that, the weather was not helping at all. It was sultry. I was quiet most of the time and didn't have the mood to talk.. Every time I thought about all the bad things that has happened to the boys within a span of 3 months, and the banning, the end of Shangyin, I feel like choking....

What Chai Jidan wrote about how she regretted not filming the car accident scene and implying that some scenes were shot, I think the scenes that were shot were the eloped scene for the MV. The season 1 of Shangyin ended around ch 100++ and the car accident happened at the end of volume 1. I don't think the remaining 100+ chapters can fit the 3 extra episodes which was originally intended for an 18 episodes web series.

My friends and I discussed about this.. What if CJD persuade the boys to secretly film this, at least until that car accident then only release it when everything has die down (8 years later maybe?)... At least it'd be possible for them to act as the adult Guhai & Bai Luoyin 8 years later...maybe... 

Here's a video that I took of the fanvid. I focused on the big screen which showed their face and reactions as they watched the fanvid on the stage screen. It was cut in the middle (and continued with the remaining of the video) because I can hear my voice as I was searching frantically for that piece of paper lol. I watched the stage screen while recording the other screen that showed their faces. Whenever fans wrote JingyuxZhouzhou, YuZhou, me and other fans screamed so loud!!! T_T My heart goes towards little DaShu for having it hard the most... 

 

Sorry for this blog-alike post... This is the only place where I can pour my feelings...

 

Oh my gosh! I cried Again while reading your posts. hugs everyone! We can do this together.