The Late Lee Eun Joo 이은주

[Guest tjadl6386]

It's been a year now since the tragic news brought down so many forums. It was such a shock and it still seems unreal but life must go on and surely LEJ will never be forgotten.

[x Sim pli city x]

cant believe she left us a year now.....wow time past by so fast.it seem like yesterday that i seen her in firebird.sigh god took another beautiful angel with him again.RIP lee eun joo

[Guest Pyoungsang]

It's been a year since the most tragic event in Korean entertainment in years. A tribute for her:

What were you thinking when you stood up

in the closet with the tie around your neck?

What pains did you suffer in your heart?

What drove you to your sleepless despair?

All I know was the dark distance

in your eyes that I saw from the other side.

All I could see was the egnima

of your faint smile on the tube.

I didn't know you but

I wish I knew you enough

to talk to you in your depair.

All you leave me is the ephemeral presence

of your image and your voice in my mind.

For your family, a beloved daughter,

a dear sister taken away in her prime.

Your friends despondent

in their sorrow will mark this

day in their broken hearts.

You were like the willow bending

in the wind until the stalk broke away

and your soul scattered through the seas.

I hope you found peace wherever you are,

for all of us, even just spectators,

will miss your presence in this world.

[rubie]

In memory of a deceased movie star

Feb. 22, GOYANG, South Korea -- Flowers and a good-will letter are placed in front of a portrait of the late movie star, Lee Eun-joo, at a memorial service in Goyang, north of Seoul, on Feb. 22, the first anniversary of her death by suicide. She had left a note indicating that she killed herself due to extreme depression. (Yonhap)

Source: http://english.yna.co.kr/Engservices/5500000000.html

Source: http://star.moneytoday.co.kr/view/star_vie...022213321396271

[shirley]

this is an interview with her parents ~ ..reading it just make one feel

the interview i read was in chinese chosun ..i did a rough translation with words that come to mind .~

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Lee eun joo death anniversary

Exclusive interwiew with her parents :

from 朝鮮日報 (chosun) - 21 Feb 2006

Lee eun joo left her simle in her photos yet her family still struggle with the torment of their sorrow . Her mother suffered from frequent loss of momeory and her father is always singing the song he used to sing with eun joo .

Ever since that day , the mother had abandoned her name . She said : "i did not take good care of my daughter , and hence felt remorse and so full of guilt "

they were like fugitives , changing their houses , never updating their ID for change of adddres and even use other people name to install their phones lines . afraid others will recognise them .

Lee eun joo's mother Choi (51) hence begin her life of concealed identity

Whatever happen that day i almost cannot remember , it was like a roll of film that had been cut .and cannot be recall

One year ago ..22 Feb .her daughter committed suicide by hanging herself with a tie .

While others causually talk about "Movie Actress Lee Eun joo commite suicide " her family are hounded by tons of reporters and fans ...holding the funeral as if they are in a battle. But the mother said : i cannot remember . Watching the reports later on the event she then realised : So that was how i act that time .recently ..she sometimes cannot remember her son's name

While eun joo is slowly slipping from other people ' memory , her mother start also to drift slowly from the crowd

Choi : "For the sake of taking care of eun joo(i think she refer to the time when eun joo is still around ) , almost do not have much contact with other people "

Till now ,she cannot watch TV programmes .Because if in the mist of changing channels and her daughter movie appear ..she will be upset and be lying in bed for a whole day .

"The heart suddenly feel so heavy ....In the movie ..my daughter is still alive ....immerse in the joy of romance ..laughing happily ...I still do not have any courage to see her "

But , even when she closes her eyes ..eun joo will be there ..as if whispering into her ears ..: omma i love you .

And even the comfort offered from people around her become hurting . Last year May , Choi shifted near to stay at the place which hold her daughter urn

14 February ..when the reporters go through alot of effort to find her current house . The living room and bedroom do not have any of lee eun joo's photos. The clothes , acessories ,photos are all kept in a small room which house the rest of her belongings Choi said : "In case the gas metor inspector will ask why she has lee eun joo photo in her house "

When Eun joo was around , she worried about me having ten cups of coffee per day and said that coffee is harmful to health . Now she does whatever her daughter wanted her to do when she was alive . Such as , going to church , drnking green tea .exercising She said that those are her comforts in life now

after the 49th day of her daughter passing , she never see her husband again.

"that is because it is my wish . Letting my daughter embark on the route of an actress . but she died with me by her side . How can i face my husband ? whenever we talk about our daughter , we will quarrel ...now i really do not have the confidence of facing my husband "

17th Feb ..in a nursing home in Jong nan . The father Mr Lee ( 50 ) took out his ID with shaking hands :

" The day my daughter left this world .is the same day as my birthday"

Mr Lee had decided to devote all his life to charity work .Hence he come here to live . He ended the billard business he owned and cut off all contacts with others

"I must see eun joo in heaven . To make this wish come true ..i must do alot more charity work .To be able to stand before my daughter without feeling ashamed ..... "

Three days before eun joo commited suicide , she plea with her father to sing her the song （Clementine）。

[song of the lyrics]

and then she left this sentence : .father ....let us met in heaven ... ! her aging father was in tears when he said

Why didn't i read her heart at that time

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李恩珠逝世一周年：她父母依然伤心欲绝

独家专访李恩珠父母

李恩珠把微笑永远留在了遗像中，然而她的家人却依然在痛苦的深渊中挣扎。母亲经常失忆，而父亲总是唱着和恩珠一起唱过的《橘儿》。图为，在李恩珠逝世一周年之际，一个影迷在李恩珠的遗像前献上了一束花。朝鲜日报记者 朱完中 摄影

从那天以后，母亲舍弃了自己的名字。她说：“我没有照顾好我的女儿，感到歉疚和自责……”他们像逃亡一样搬家，没有更换居民登记证上的住址，安装电话也要以他人的名义。深怕被别人认出来。李恩珠的母亲崔某（化名，51岁）就这样过上了彻底隐姓埋名的生活。

“那天的事情，几乎想不起来。就像胶卷被切断一样不复记忆……”

1年前的2月22日，女儿被发现用领带上吊自杀。人们轻松地说着“电影演员李恩珠自杀”，而她的家人在许多记者和影迷的包围下，像进行战争一样举行了葬礼，但是母亲却说：“想不起来了。”“看着后来播出的报道，才知道‘原来那时我是那样做的’。最近，偶尔还想不起儿子的名字。”

在人们渐渐遗忘“恩珠”的时候，母亲也在渐渐远离喧嚣的人群。崔某说：“原本为了照顾恩珠，几乎与别人没有接触过。”她到现在都不能看电视。因为如果在转换频道时突然出现有女儿出演的电影，就要伤心得一整天都躺在床上。“心会一下子往下沉。在电影中，女儿依然还活着，享受爱情，开心地笑。我至今没有勇气去看女儿的样子。”

但是，即使闭上眼睛，恩珠也依然在眼前，仿佛在她的耳边轻轻地说“妈妈，我爱你”。她说，周围的安慰最后也都变成了伤害。崔某去年5月搬到了安置女儿骨灰的骨灰堂附近。

2月14日，记者经过千辛万苦找到了她位于日山的家。客厅和卧室里都没有挂李恩珠的照片。衣服、装饰品、照片也都放在了存放女儿遗物的一个小房间里。崔某说：“因为害怕煤气抄表员会问为什么家里会有恩珠的照片。”

“恩珠生前对我一天喝十杯咖啡很担心，她说咖啡对身体有害……”她现在都在做女儿生前让她做的事情。如，去教会，喝绿茶，做运动。她说只有那些才能成为生活的慰藉。在女儿的49日祭以后，就没有和丈夫见过面。“是因为我的愿望，让女儿走上了演员的路，可女儿就在我身边死去了。我有何颜面去见丈夫？只要一提到女儿，我们就会吵架……现在真的没有和丈夫见面的自信。”

本月17日，在忠南一家疗养院。父亲李某（50岁）用颤抖的手拿出了身份证。“女儿离开人世的日子和我的生日是同一天。”李某下决心一生都献给义工活动，所以他来到了这里。他结束了原本经营的台球场生意，与所有熟人都断绝了联系。“一定要在天国见到恩珠。为了这个愿望，我要做更多的善事。为了不在女儿面前感到惭愧……”恩珠在自杀三天前，曾在车里央求父亲给她唱《橘儿》（Clementine）。

“在宽阔的海边/一个小草屋里/住着捕鱼的父亲和/不懂事的女儿/我的爱，我的爱/我的爱，橘儿/留下年迈的父亲一个人/永远离开去了哪里……”然后她留下这样一句话：“爸爸，我们在天国相见吧。”为什么那个时候我没能读懂女儿的心呢？说到这里，“年迈的父亲”哽咽不已。

记者 许允姬 ostinato@chosun.com / 记者 曹义俊 joyjune@chosun.com

朝鮮日報2006-2-21

[Guest V A L XD]

I just watched the photo doc. And i really cried towards the end.

I miss her so.

If anyone wants to watch it, i'll upload it.

[melusine]

Oh, shirley. Unless you've lost a loved one (esp under such tragic circumstances), we'll never know how hard it is for the ones left behind. Let's pray for her family...that someday, no matter how difficult or impossible it may seem now, they'll eventually find peace and acceptance.

Thanks for translating.

[rubie]

Oh, shirley. Unless you've lost a loved one (esp under such tragic circumstances), we'll never know how hard it is for the ones left behind. Let's pray for her family...that someday, no matter how difficult or impossible it may seem now, they'll eventually find peace and acceptance.

Agree with melusine... yes.

Thanks for translating & sharing the article, Shirley.

[Guest erniehkwon]

this is an interview with her parents ~ ..reading it just make one feel

the interview i read was in chinese chosun ..i did a rough translation with words that come to mind .~

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Lee eun joo death anniversary

Exclusive interwiew with her parents :

from 朝鮮日報 (chosun) - 21 Feb 2006

Thanks for the translation. The sorrow still burns like it just happened yesterday.

[PiffleSprite]

I just watched the photo doc. And i really cried towards the end.

I miss her so.

If anyone wants to watch it, i'll upload it.

even tho i didnt understand the voice overs and interview... just watching it was sad also, the interview in the chinese chosun was so sad... made me wanna cry

[Guest evelyn168]

Shirley thanks for translating. This really brings back memories of LEJ.. I feel sorry for her parents... What I want them to do is stay strong and live happily. Eunjoo unnie wouldn't want them to be sad... I hope her mom starts to open up more... Going to church is a good way...

[Guest V A L XD]

I've still haven't seen her funeral clips. This was the first time i got to see a little part of the clip during the interviews.

if someone still has those, do you mind uploading it?

I really do feel sorry for her parents. They've lost so much...but worse, they lost everything when they lost their daughter.

[Guest Azura]

this is an interview with her parents ~ ..reading it just make one feel

the interview i read was in chinese chosun ..i did a rough translation with words that come to mind .~

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shirley....thanks for the translation.

the saddest part is when his dad said she wanted to hear him sing Clementine a few days before she died ....

it bring tears to my eyes when i read it...

[melusine]

Finally saw LEJ's photo documentary via creidesca's clubbox.

Eventhough I couldn't understand what they were saying, just watching her friends and colleagues fondly reminiscing about her, the clips from her films and behind-the-scenes, and the palpable grief at her funeral service...by the end, I was in tears.

We miss you, EunJoo ssi. A beautiful person like you is a great loss to the world. Wherever you are, I hope you know that you are loved.

[Guest midnight sun]

shirley, many thanks for the translation.

[Guest dashuu]

800 people joined the memorial day ceremony.

이루마 - YIRUMA on piano

정재환

유준상

한석규

김소연

김장훈

[shirley]

you all are welcome for the translation ~ i am glad to see there are still those like you all who remember her .

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^That would be much appreciated.

Oh, shirley. Unless you've lost a loved one (esp under such tragic circumstances), we'll never know how hard it is for the ones left behind. Let's pray for her family...that someday, no matter how difficult or impossible it may seem now, they'll eventually find peace and acceptance.

Thanks for translating.

yes i know ~ it is easy to say to forget and live on but to her parents ..its is not just so simple .~ i hope they will be able to find some peace ...eun joo will not want them to be in such a way too.

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i just saw the photo documentary ~ it was really so well done .capturing so many images of her and the interviews .she had such a beautiful collection of musical box ....and her handwritten letters ..the saddest was when seeing kim ji soo , kim so yeon and moon guen young ..still in tears when they talk about her ~ .i will upload it later ..~

=

there is a news clip - 7 min long on the programe hold in memory of her on 22 Feb

mms://mmc.daumcast.net/tvnews/ytnstar/200602/23/200602231849103343_s.wmv

이은주 1주기 추모 콘서트

[현장음]

'안녕, 나야, 은주. 나 지금 여행 중이야"

얼마나 더 기다려야 여행에서 돌아온 그녀를 다시 볼 수 있을까요?

스물넷 꽃다운 나이에 사랑하는 사람들 곁을 홀연히 떠나 머나먼 곳을 여행 중이라는 그녀, 이은주.

어제는 그녀가 우리 곁을 떠난 지 딱 일 년째 되는 날이었습니다.

보고 싶고 또 보고 싶은 그녀를 다시 기억하기 위해 수많은 사람들이 한자리에 모여 그녀에 대한 그리움과 슬픔을 함께 나눴는데요.

이곳은 이은주 1주기 추모 공연이 열린 콘서트장 입구입니다.

가장 먼저 사람들을 맞은 것은 이은주, 그녀 생전 모습들이 담겨 있는 사진들이었는데요.

시간을 되돌려 그녀를 다시 볼 수 있다면 얼마나 좋을까요.

영화배우 한석규 씨를 비롯한 수많은 동료 배우들, 지인들도 속속 도착했습니다.

[인터뷰:유준상]

"친한 동생이었어요. 피아노를 잘 치는 친구였다."

그녀가 살며 사랑했던 흔적들을 찾아 떠난 여행, 그 첫 번째 여정은 피아니스트 이루마의 연주로 시작됐는데요.

유독 영화 속에서 피아노 치는 모습을 자주 보여줬던 이은주, 그녀는 생전에 이동 중인 자동차 안에서 사람들이 '이제 그만'을 외칠 정도로 이루마의 피아노 연주를 크게 틀어놓고 즐겨 들었던 이루마의 팬이었다고 하죠.

그렇게 좋아했던 이루마의 피아노 연주를, 이제 저 하늘나라에서 듣고 있을까요.

[인터뷰:이루마]

"저는 이은주 씨를 개인적으로 만나본 적이 없지만, 이은주가 제 노래 좋아해 주셨다고 그래서 초대받게 돼, 너무 기쁘다."

이은주 씨는 데뷔 초에 김장훈 씨의 뮤직비디오 '슬픈 선물'에 출연하기도 했었는데요.

정말 오랜만에 보는 데뷔 초 그녀의 앳된 모습, 왜 이리 반가운지요.

[인터뷰:김장훈]

"함께 식사라도 하자고 했는데 못했네요. 진심으로 기도해드릴게요."

생전에 이은주 씨와 자매처럼 다정했던 벗, 가수 바다 역시 함께 했는데요.

가슴 속 깊이 새겨진 그녀와의 우정으로 힘든 시간을 보냈을 바다씨, 몸은 떠났어도 마음만은 우리 곁에 있는 그녀를 기억하며 자신의 노래로 그녀를 불러봅니다.

1년 전 이은주의 사망 소식에 가장 먼저 달려와 한없이 눈물을 쏟아냈던 그녀,

여러분도 기억하시죠?

[인터뷰:바다]

"친구 생각 많이 하고요. 앞으로도 그렇겠지만 항상 함께 있다는 생각을 하게 됐어요. 좋은 곳에 있다는 믿음이 있기 때문에 다시 만날 때까지 열심히 노래하다가 부끄럽지 않게 만날 수 있게 항상 같이 있다는 믿음으로 '곁에 있으니까' 들려드리겠습니다."

이어서 이은주, 그녀가 이승에 남긴 흔적들과 지인들의 기억 속에 남은 그녀의 모습을 담은 포토다큐가 상영됐는데요.

[인터뷰:문근영]

"정말 따뜻한 사람인데, 그 따뜻함을 얼음이라는 걸로 감추고 있고 따뜻함을 직접 손대지 못하게 한 공주님."

[인터뷰:김소연]

"너무 미안해요."

[인터뷰:김지수]

"벌써 1년인 것이 아직도 실감이 잘 안돼요."

포토다큐에 이어서 이은주 씨의 팬 역시 그녀를 향한 그리움이 담긴 편지를 낭독했습니다.

"걱정하지마. 나 어디 안가, 그대로 있을게. 지금 모습 그대로"

그녀가 영화 '번지점프를 하다'에서 했던 대사인데요,

아마 그녀를 그리워하며 슬퍼할 우리를 위로하기 위해 그녀가 몰래 남겨놓은 게 아닐까요.

제발 그녀가 이제는 걱정 없는 곳에서 행복하게 잘 살고 있기를 바랍니다. [저작권자© YTNSTAR & Digital YTN. 무단 전재-재배포 금지]

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[Guest V A L XD]

Its really hard to look at where she now rest for eterntiy.

[shirley]

KBS - Photo Documentary - on Lee Eun joo (HQ) for those who cannot dl from CB

http://s19.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0O46C17...8B38MJKY76Q6HLV

[Guest MKYOO]

miss u unnie!! its already been one year