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  1. I'm just angry of what happened to my body bc of this man. I hope I heal soon and the antibiotics will work. I am so angry right now. He was a dirty nasty moron. I learned my lesson it's not about looks. I'm upset I got this.. We tested for everything and it was good. But IDK how he picked this up. They don't normally test for this. It's like God kept warning me and I won't listen. So I kept getting deeper and deeper. He looked good just like my ex. But he was so cruel and garbage. He doesn't care about his health. I think he has turned insane. Smoking vape and driving.. making fun of people.. He is insane like my other ex. I hate them both. I hate the things he said to me. I feel like kicking him in the face
  2. At one point I really liked my boyfriend but because I got an infection from him, I started to hate him. Resent him every day that I took him back and he doesn't change. Still talking to girls that like him. It got to a point I talked to the other girl and she was just someone who would go for anything. When my counsellor told me he is just like my cheating ex. I felt so defeated. I asked the counsellor, can he change? She's like you been with him for 6 months, his behaviour shows no change. In the end you will find out he cheats on you and you will get angry. You will go to jail this time. When the police comes all you can say is your bf cheated on you. I was so angry. So angry at that moment that I yelled at him through text and there was no way he can budge. Anyways, I'm trying to heal my infection right now and clean up my stuff. I was really close to my bf one point but even when I gave him the benefit of the doubt, I wasn't sure if I wanted such a poor life. I knew when I was with him in bed at his parents house. I was thinking wow, I worked so hard in life. I have to settle for such a poor life and always worried about getting infected. He buys expired groceries and counts every penny. He was vaping in the car , smoking like my ex. I was like they are the same person. Crazy and doesn't care about health. Crazy and cruel. It wasn't a relationship I felt confident about. I am happy it's over and I can see a life of opportunities with people who love God. I am currently still suffering with the infection but I will take care of myself at this moment. I am talking to another guy right now, I don't know what's going to happen. But he seems like a nice guy that wants a gf. He is busy though but I'm okay with it, he lives close. This time I have to see them for who they are. Not try to change them. I am glad I didn't stay til the end and fully watch him cheat like my ex. I don't want to operate like that anymore. I need to change the way I do things. I also need to lose weight. I am on my last days of antibiotics. I hope it works this time. I'm praying to God that I can be healthy again and find someone who loves me. I like being in a relationship.
  3. My bf told me to get an abortion, I minus well cheat on you since you always feel that way, and told me he checks out other girls when I'm not around. My health is bad because of him, he gave me an infection. I called the doctor for him, he has an infection for so long now. He never got treated and he's out cheating on me. I told him and he said sorry. But I realize.. it's over.. I'm sad and shocked.. But it's over. There's no good future being with someone who says mean things to you. Always scared of cheating and bringing diseases and pain. I am leaving for good this time. I have to take care of my health and I have to continue to survive. He was just like cheating ex. People who don't care about you, will do all kinds of bad things to you.
  4. I keep going back but this is an important decision my mentor told me. I'm looking for a husband that can give leadership to the house hold. Him and her husband wished me a life time of happiness. Why am I forsaking that? Even if I don't marry a religious man. I should be with someone I can look upto. I really hope God will help me. Deep inside I do want him to change and be nicer to me. I don't know. I wish there was a miracle.
  5. He told me he didn't cheat and it was all in my head. He told me when he told me he cheated in the past
  6. He keeps saying he didn't cheat on me. Told me the other girl added him on Instagram.
  7. I was upset he didn't write me a letter or serenade to me last night. But he brought me to an expensive sushi dinner that was almost $200. He knows I want him to write me a letter or roses. Anyways during dinner, he was playing with his phone. Looking at cars. I told him during dinner. I like you best when we first wake up because you give me all your attention and you're smiling in the morning. He immediately put away his phone. I remember one time after a party. I was so tired I fell a sleep and I woke up. He woke up too. He saw my face and I saw his. I was so happy to see him. I started kissing him. We had a lot of moments in our relationship. Moments of us holding hands and walking. Or times we were just cuddling in bed and he kissed me. I don't know what we have is real love. But when we talk in public. I asked him what happened to our bubble bath together. What happened to my letter or poem. He told me he's never going to write me a poem. I told him most of our relationship is me attacking him with kisses in bed and he comforts me by paddling my arm. I still haven't had intimacy with him yet. Probably never will until married. I really think it's because I didn't have intimacy with him that's what is keeping our relationship. But I don't think he truly loves me. If he does... Why am I so insecure with him finding someone else.
  8. He gets really insulting about my brain and do I think when I talk to him. I hate him. I hate him for not being forgiving and screaming at me for times he doesn't get his way. For telling me if I get fat he will leave me. For thinking of such perverted thoughts. For being such a cheap and stingy person for pleasure. I hate him. He even told people he was with that he wasn't interested in having intimacy with them because they were fat. I hate him for being such a selfish and unloving person. I hate him for thinking and making me want to give in and using my past as a threat. I hate him. I wish I never met this person. Such an unloving and douchey person.
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