i cheated on my bf, he took me out for a fancy dinner.. then he talked about his ex and i cried

i do try to be really good to my current bf, i cook for him. but he doesn't like my body or my physical features. i feel so bad he didn't call me one night.. i thought he was cheating on me. so i cheated on him with this really hot guy who lives close to me. the sex wasn't that great. the whole time i miss my bf. i felt so bad. i feel my bf is neglecting me. doesn't want a future with me. so i slept with someone else. then today he took me out for dinner... and when he talked about his ex. i felt like he was in love with her still. i tried to hold in my tears. but i couldn't. so i walked away.. and i started crying. when i came back i tried to look all happy. he's like is something wrong.. then i started crying again. i just want him to love me thats all. and tell me he'll always be there for me. but he isn't. i feel so sad. :(it used to be so normal.. but as time flies by.. i want more. i realize. i want a guy to plan a future with me. i am looking for something serious. 

awe, I know how you feel, I've been there. my ex was like that too. he insisted that he's always there for me, he said that he loves me. but all he do is neglecting me almost everytime I got sick. he's kinda harsh too. I tried so hard to make him show the affection. but everything seems to be in vain. after 5 years. I left him. and now I found a guy that is much more caring and I'm happy now ^^ people won't change, no matter how much we love him or how much we want him to change. so what I change is my feeling for him. =p

One decision in life can destroy the happiness of the outcome, a few minutes of pleasure can destroy a person's heart to the fullest. Please tell him what happen because if you don't you'll feel guilty for the rest of your life. His decision to stay with you or not is his issue to solve but please don't lie in a relationship it just creates more issue. You can lie now but you cannot lie to yourself forever. Please stay strong, i know it's a mistake and it truly hurts a lot.

if you cheated on him then dont expect him to be there for you
also, you always post these weird threads (in the wrong place) that sounds like all you ever do is try to live your life like a drama...

I'll probably sound like a richard simmons for this one, but I am one of those who do not believe cheating is ever justified, neglected or not. If you are unhappy, leave the relationship. Don't cheat. Be honest with him, tell him the truth, talk to him about it. 

babygirrll said:  as time flies by.. i want more. i realize. i want a guy to plan a future with me. i am looking for something serious. 

He doesn't like your body because you're all "loose" down there and it smells weird and etc I understand him...

Omg since when were you able to settle down into a relationship. Last time you posted you were with a fat guy.... And then with a kitten guy, and then with a turtle....

babygirrll

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You really think it's acceptable to cheat on your bf, thn come here and cry about how he talks about his ex and how you want someone to plan a future with you?
learn to be monogamous thn maybe someone will actually want a future with you.

If you want a serious relationship, why did you cheat? It makes you look like a hypocrite. A guy who can't appreciate his significant other should just be dumped. I would have just left if he was acting indifferent to me.
Also, don't you think that having an affair will affect your future relationships? You might get a new and wonderful boyfriend, but if he hears that you cheated in a previous relationship he (the new boyfriend) might not be so trusting of you. You say you're thinking of the future but I don't think you thought it all the way through...

I dislike cheaters. They're doing it for their own good. Selfish little..

This is what I do get. Why didn't you hear him out before you cheated on him ? If you cheat on the guy, logically that means, you dont like the guy. You probably just liked him for the sex. 
But I do think every one deserves someone that they love and the past is the past. Just dont make the same mistake ! Oh, I hope you do end up finding your Mr Right in the future.

We're getting trolled by her drama like fantasies. What she wants is some attention, she probably doesn't even care what the replies are but how many she gets. So my hats off you to Mrs.Attention seeker, mission accomplished.

Necessary Evil said: We're getting trolled by her drama like fantasies. What she wants is some attention, she probably doesn't even care what the replies are but how many she gets. So my hats off you to Mrs.Attention seeker, mission accomplished.

You cheated on him because he didn't call you one night, which totally means that he's been cheating on you? What are you, in high school? You're an idiot.

Hey shawtie what you doing tonight? Troll topics kill the pink berry integrity of this forum.

I got a very good laugh at the replies. LOL
When I read the OP's topic, I was like, "Seriously?"

Why does this post annoy me so much? I mean...are you serious? I hope not. :I

It's not real.

Read my post and NPB-XK's post.

It looks like she annoys him the most and that's strange because almost nothing seems to annoy him.