i do try to be really good to my current bf, i cook for him. but he doesn't like my body or my physical features. i feel so bad :(
he didn't call me one night.. i thought he was cheating on me. so i cheated on him with this really hot guy who lives close to me. the sex wasn't that great. the whole time i miss my bf. i felt so bad. i feel my bf is neglecting me. doesn't want a future with me. so i slept with someone else. then today he took me out for dinner... and when he talked about his ex. i felt like he was in love with her still. i tried to hold in my tears. but i couldn't. so i walked away.. and i started crying. when i came back i tried to look all happy. he's like is something wrong.. then i started crying again. i just want him to love me :(
thats all. and tell me he'll always be there for me. but he isn't. i feel so sad. :(
it used to be so normal.. but as time flies by.. i want more. i realize. i want a guy to plan a future with me.
i am looking for something serious.